I don't feel like myself

Nightmare

I had a dream that this person I once knew was getting married next year, and that she was happy with the life she had now. When I asked her what the one week meant she said that she was just waiting for him because she had planned to stay with him already but just didn't want to tell me. I walked out of the room and started walking, I don't know how long I walked but at some point I walked far enough to not recognise where I was. I sat on a bench staring at the stars and laughed. I laughed because it never mattered, that it was all supposed to lead to this. That everything I have done will never be good enough. But I was so far away that I began to forget everything, I slowly fell asleep on the bench and woke up to reality. But reality is more nightmarish