I don't feel like myself

Ghost

I could always feel it
Hiding in my shadows
Looming right behind
I know they're there

They were there before her
And they are here after her
The only thing that really stayed
Today was our special day after all
So I guess it didn't want me to be lonely

If it could feel what I feel right now
It's probably suffering
But I won't let it go
Because I've attached it to myself

They're the ones who succeeded in dying
They're just waiting for me to join them
I think that's pretty nice
We're gonna have a tea party I think

Or I might just be losing it
Finally spiralling downwards towards insanity
But I don't really care anymore
You were my chains and I was unbridled suffering

You said all the pretty lies to bound my heart
Even my ghosts believed you
But in the end as we all suspected
In the end it was still a lie