My Photographer (Diggy Simmons)

Virgin?

"Lexi tell me about your daughter " I said as we laid in the bed.

We were body to body in the dark. I rubbed my fingers through her hair. Even though the room was dark, I was still able to get a glimpse of her face from the moonlight that peeked through the curtains. And still, she was beautiful.

"Really Diggy! ?" She said over a whisper. I chuckled, knowing I was going to irritate her but I wanted so badly to know.

"What Lexi! ? And watch your tongue when you're talking to me! Its Daniel to you!" I said through a slight laugh.

"I really don't find anything funny! " she said with ATTITUDE.

"it's not funny Lexi. I just want to be able to paint a picture in my head of how you were as a mommy being as I haven't even seen a picture of Baby Angelica yet. I want to know Lex " I pulled her closer to me causing my chin to rest at the top of her head.

I felt her rest her arm on my hip as the air from her breath glided down my chest.

"She was everything to me, I sometimes feel like I can't live without her you know?... Daniel I miss my baby girl so much it's rediculous!

When I can't take it I just go and visit her. Around the time I met you, I was going through a phase. I would sometimes hear her laugh but I realized I was hallucinating."

She paused for a second as a slight smile crept on her face.

"Every morning she would wake up at the crack of dawn. I would be so mad but once I look over and see her face I couldn't help but laugh. She would always pull my hair as she did her baby talk. Once I was completely up, she would just sit there with a smile on her face. I would say good morning Angelica in my baby voice and she would laugh hysterically "

She chuckled.

"She was just learning how to walk. She was so innocent and so full of life. She had this one thing she would do with her lips it was just so cute. She even started to call me mama!"

She got silent so I took thAt time to ask her a question.

"Where is her dad?" I noticed she never mentioned anything about a father being around.

"There isn't one. I went through the procedure of going to a fertility doctor. I did that because guys my age aren't quite stable yet meaning, they're minds aren't prepared to mentally and physically handle the reality of being a dad. I would rather raise my child alone than having a childish guy as the father of my child, plus I wasn't ready to have sex."

"What do you mean you weren't ready to have sex? Lexi are you a virgin?"

"Yes! I'm a virgin."

"Wow that was really big of you, to have a baby and not feel what sex is like first!"

"I just don't want to give my prize away to someone who's still in third place. You gotta be a champ to hit this homerun! " she joked.

"You right you right well, the champ is here!"

"Whatever! .... so, what does it feel like? "

"What sex?"

"Yea"

"Well it depends, if you love someone then it feels great. That's the moment where all of your emotions, love, lust, happiness and passion is put into one. It actually means something to you because you're crazy about that person.

But if you're just screwing, its feels good but only during that moment. Once it's over back to regular programming. You handle the person you love way different than you handle the person you're just screwing."

"Ok, I think I get it. I like how you broke that down mister love doctor!" She said playfully tickling my torso.

"I'm no love doctor! I have my flaws."

"Yea you do, but so do I "

"I wish you could see what I see" I thought to myself...

After that we both got quiet and just laid there until we fell asleep.

Diggys thoughts...

Lexi a virgin!? Could I wait until she's ready to have sex in order to get sex?

Will she ever be ready to have sex?

It's funny how she tells me she's a virgin after making things official. Slick girl.(lol)
She has a lot of things going on with her, will I be able to be there for her through everything?

Gosh I guess I'll see...