Come as you are

Is that too much to ask?

Kankri walked over to the doctor and was wringing his hands as the doctor spoke. Dave was chewing his nails watching the other two talk. Kankri exhaled a sigh of relief and walked back over to Dave.
"He's okay. A little sore and drowsy but okay. We're allowed to go back and see him now"
Dave looked down at his lap and sighed,
"I don't think he wants to see me again. Especially not now"
Kankri frowned and, not being one for physical contact, grabbed the others hand and led them back to the room Karkat was in.
Karkat opened his eyes and smiled seeing his brother. He hugged him tightly and allowed a few tears to fall out of his eyes.
"I'm so sorry Kanny...I just wanted to sleep and the normal dosage wasn't working. I didn't mean for this to happen."
Kankri just shook his head and kissed the others head. Dave awkwardly stood in the back and smiled at the scene. He felt a little pang of jealously however. He wished he had that kind of love from someone. Karkat wiped his eyes and saw Dave and immediately his demeanor changed.
"What the fuck are you doing here?" He had venom in his words like Kankri did at the house.
"I needed to know you were okay" Dave said softly
Karkat rolled his eyes,
"Needed to make sure that your fuckbuddy was doing just fine? Needed to make sure that the notch in your bedpost wasn't dead?!" Karkat had tears in his eyes again.
"You need to leave, Dave"
Dave stood his ground,
"Not until you listen to me, damnit"
Karkat almost ripped the IV out of his arm but his brother soon laid him back down.
"Karkat, I'm sorry about what happened. I didn't know Bro was going to be home. I'll admit, what he said was true, to an extent. I do do that often. I've been known for it for a few years now. But with you-"
He walked over and grabbed his hand,
"With you it was different. I felt something. Something I've never felt before. Since the day I met you I felt it. And I need it in my life. I need you"
Karkat, again, had tears in his eyes.
"Fuck you, pretty boy" he said with a laugh.
Dave smiled and blushed.
"Can you forgive me?"
"Sure, why the fuck not? I'm a caring guy, I'll let you off easy this time"
Dave kissed the others cheek and smiled.
"Okay okay now that you're sweet moment is over, can someone please tell me what the fuck is going on?"
Kankri never cursed, or did anything of the sort unless he was extremely passionate about something.
Karkat was stunned a bit but shook it off and laughed,
"I'll tell you later, Kan. However I don't think you'll appreciate it too much"
He winked at Dave and took a deep breath. He was tired and sore still. He wanted to go home.
"When did they say I could get out of this fuckbucket anyhow?" Karkat said with a yawn.
"In about an hour. But you may have to talk to the doctor a little before we go. They're thinking that with your, record, that you may need to be put under suicide watch or be admitted.
Karkat choked on his spit and sat up.
"You've got to he shitting me? I don't need any of these things. I didn't intentionally try to kill myself! It was an accident!" Karkat's anxiety was acting up and he could feel himself start to shake. Dave grabbed his hand again and rubbed his thumb over it.
Karkat relaxed and sat back.
"Tell them I'm fine. I just want to go home and sleep for about 12 hours, is that to much to ask? I've been through hell today."
A doctor walked in and had to ask Dave and Kankri to leave for now. Karkat protested but to no avail. He was alone with the doctor and he staying quiet like normal.
"So Karkat, my name is Doctor D, funny name for a doctor I know but I digress. I'm going to ask you a few questions about your situation and a few other incidents your brother mentioned to us is that okay?"
This doctor had spiky yellow-ish hair and his eyes almost looked orange. He had a kind smile on his face so Karkat didn't seem so tense. He nodded and that qued Doctor D. to start the questions.
"Have you ever been admitted to a psychiatric hospital?"
Karkat shook his head.
"Have you ever harmed yourself in any way purposely, for example, cutting, bruising, pulling your hair out etcetera?"
Karkat froze and nodded quickly.
"What form of harm did you use? I'm so sorry about being nosy, it's protocol."
"I-I uh..I used to cut my arms and hips. And I would bruise my legs."
Karkat could feel tears in his eyes. This didn't bring back good memories, then again why would it?
"Alright. I have only a few more questions and we'll be all done. Karkat, have you ever tried to kill yourself?"
Karkat nodded again quickly.
"When was the last time?"
"Around March, I think"
It was March 13th. Right after school. He remembered that day.
"Have you tried since then?"
He shook his head again.
"Do you feel like you need to be hospitalized or put under a certain watch?"
Karkat shot his head up,
"No. No I don't. This was an accident I swear. Im not suicidal anymore, I don't want to hurt myself and if I do, I dont, I'm better now..I just want to go home with my brother and Dave and get some sleep and not have to answer anymore fucking questions, is that to much for a guy to want?"
Karkat was crying now. He wiped his eyes and ran his fingers through his hair.
"I wanna go home" he said softly.
The doctor walked over and put an arm around the other. He squeezed briefly and looked at him,
"You can go home in about 15 minutes. I did prescribe a better sleep medication for you but only your brother can give it to you. I think you're going to be just fine" He pulled a card out of his picket and handed it to him,
"This is a number and address to a support group a friend of mine runs. I think you'd like it" he smiled and left.
Karkat looked at the cars and laughed. It was same place he'd been going for the past month. He got changed and went to the bathroom to fix himself. He looked in the mirror and took a deep breath.
"Im gonna be okay"