Mi Appartieni

Chapter Twenty-Seven

        Joshua looks up at Seokmin with those big doe-like eyes that Seokmin had missed. The eyes that Seokmin would do anything for. The eyes he would kill for. "S-Seokmin." Joshua whispers softly.

Seokmin feels a heat growing in his chest. His hands travel from Joshua's biceps where he had caught him from falling. He cups Joshua's cheeks, holding his head in his hands with a careful gentleness.

Joshua closes his eyes as he leans into Seokmin's touch. Cute. Seokmin thinks as he watches Joshua melt in his hands.

Joshua feels his stress dissolving again. He feels that now familiar sense of relief at having Seokmin in front of him once again. 

He drops the shirt and reaches up, resting his hands on Seokmin's wrists as he continues to cup his face sweetly.

Seokmin leans down and presses his forehead to Joshua's. Joshua sighs in relief at the closeness. He feels all of the emotions bubbling up inside of him.

"I thought you were dead." Joshua finally manages to choke out, barely above a whisper, "I thought I had lost you. I was so scared." "I'm sorry." Seokmin breathes in the same tone Joshua had used as he strokes Joshua's cheek with his thumb, their foreheads still touching,

"I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to scare you like that." "What happened to you?" Seokmin runs his fingers through Joshua's hair in a comforting way. Joshua slides his hands down Seokmin's arms until they rest on his forearms.

"I was in a coma for a week. I wanted to go to you immediately. But I couldn't walk. I was ready to crawl all the way to Boston just to be next to you again. I still wasn't cleared to travel, but as soon as I got your message, nothing else mattered. I had to come to you."

Joshua wants to scold Seokmin but very selfishly, he was so, so glad he came. Joshua was getting ready to go crazy. He didn't think he would make it another day without Seokmin.

Joshua has to tell him that. He has to tell him everything he's been feeling. "Seokmin." Joshua breathes again.

Seokmin pulls his forehead off Joshua's so they can look into each other's eyes again. "I-I-" Joshua doesn't know where to start. "I thought I would be happy to be home. But I wasn't. I couldn't sleep without you, I couldn't stop thinking about you, I saw you in strangers, I... I missed you."

Seokmin listens carefully, hung on Joshua's every word as his hands travel to Joshua's waist. "When I found out about the bodyguard, I was so, so happy you were alive. I don't know when it started, but I got used to having you next to me. I got used to your warmth and your presence."

Joshua reaches up and cups Seokmin's cheeks this time. "Seokmin... I like you."

Seokmin sighs in relief at finally hearing the words he craved. "I know." Seokmin says in an endearing manner. Joshua isn't surprised. Of course Seokmin knew. 

Joshua knew he was very obvious in his feelings with the way he had clung onto Seokmin as if his life depended on it. "I know. And I have loved you from the moment I looked into your eyes."

Joshua feels that familiar warmth spread through him again, only this time it was the most intense it's ever been. Love. Love.

Joshua wasn't afraid of hearing that word. He didn't fight it. He was able to accept it immediately. Because it came from Seokmin. His Seokmin. The man who would protect him no matter what. The man who made him feel so safe. The man who had healed something in Joshua that he never thought could be repaired.

Seokmin had never been so sure of anything in his life. Of course he loved Joshua. How could he not? Joshua can't take it anymore. "Seokmin." He breathes as he wraps his arms around Seokmin's neck.

"Yes, il mio piccolo." (My little one). "Kiss me." Seokmin doesn't need to be told twice. He doesn't hesitate or think twice about it. His arms wrap around Joshua's waist as he pulls him in, their lips crashing together.

Seokmin feels something burn deep inside of him. The desire that he had for Joshua has never been so intense. He felt as though something in him snapped. All he could think about, all that mattered, was Joshua.

As for Joshua, well he never, ever in his life felt anything like this before. He's never been so sure of his feelings toward Seokmin.

The two move their lips in sync as they hold each other impossibly close. Seokmin picks Joshua up under his thighs. Joshua wraps his legs around Seokmin's waist as he carries him over to the couch.

Seokmin sets him down with all the gentleness in the world, their lips never leaving each other as he settles in between Joshua's legs.

Seokmin has one hand on Joshua's waist, pressing down on him as their hips meet. The other is on the armrest next to Joshua's head to hold himself up so he doesn't crush Joshua's smaller frame. Joshua has his fingers in Seokmin's hair, pulling lightly as they deepen their kiss.

The two are kissing each other hurriedly and deeply as if they couldn't get enough of each other. And they couldn't. Seokmin uses his tongue and Joshua can't separate his lips fast enough to allow him.

Joshua's hands fall on Seokmin's shoulders. Seokmin's hand moves from Joshua's waist to cup his cheek as they continue to kiss.

After a moment Seokmin pulls away from Joshua's lips, the two of them breathing heavily. Both of their lips are red and swollen from the intense kiss. They look into each other's eyes, panting deeply.

Seokmin moves behind Joshua's ear, kissing there hurriedly before making his way down to his neck.

Joshua gasps and breathes heavily as Seokmin kisses his neck, their hips still grinding into each other. Joshua bites his lip as a small moan escapes his mouth. Seokmin grins evilly into Joshua's soft skin.

He lifts Joshua up so he's straddling his lap, their chests touching. Seokmin can feel Joshua's erratic heartbeat.

He puts his hand over the spot on Joshua's chest where his heart is. His large hand covering half of Joshua's chest. "Calm down." Seokmin breathes, concerned over how fast Joshua's heart was pounding. "I can't." Joshua exhales, "It's you."

Seokmin shakes his head. Joshua just keeps finding more and more ways to drive him crazy. To make him want him even more. To make him fall deeper in love with him with each passing second.

Seokmin leans forward and kisses Joshua again, this time slower and more sweetly. Joshua holds onto Seokmin, accepting the kiss like nothing else mattered.

Just then, someones unlocks Joshua's apartment door and tries to come in. The door is stopped by the chain lock though.

Joshua gasps and turns toward the door, clutching onto Seokmin securely. Seokmin immediately pulls out his hidden gun, pulling Joshua in by the small of his back, ready to protect him with his life.

"Shua!" The two of them hear Jeonghan's frantic yet excited voice just then. "What's the point of giving me a key if you're going to chain lock the door?! Open up!" 

Joshua's eyes go wide. He turns back toward Seokmin with big, frantic eyes.