Mi Appartieni

Chapter Thirty-Four

         Joshua was cleaning his apartment trying to keep himself busy. Seokmin had left to do some business and Joshua was trying anything to distract himself.

He tried to go to the cafe to work but Chan and Vernon kicked him out. They said that's why he hired them so all the work didn't fall on Joshua's shoulders. Joshua was grateful to them but he seriously needed to get his mind off of missing Seokmin.

Joshua wanted to tell Seokmin to stay. He wanted to ask him to reschedule his work. He knew Seokmin would. He knew by now that anything Joshua asked for, Seokmin would do.

He also knew he couldn't ask that of Seokmin. He knew Seokmin was sacrificing a lot by being in Boston and Joshua couldn't be a distraction. Seokmin would be done soon anyway. He promised Joshua he wouldn't be long.

Joshua continues to vacuum, letting his mind wander to the events that happened a few days ago. The news of Hajoon's death still weighed heavily on him. It was a stark contrast to the weight that Joshua also felt had been lifted off of him.

He was happy that the dark cloud that was Hajoon was gone. But he also couldn't help but think that Seokmin had something to do with Hajoon's death. He could he not?

Seokmin was always so protective over him. He's hurt people, killed them for Joshua's sake before. What would stop him from doing it to Hajoon? The man that nearly killed Joshua in the past.

Joshua knew he hadn't told Seokmin everything about what Hajoon had done to him. But he also wasn't stupid. He knew Seokmin had his ways of finding out. Joshua doesn't know how he would feel if he was right about everything. That Seokmin had dug into his past and did have something to do with Hajoon's death.

Joshua would feel slightly violated that Seokmin looked into his dark past and took it upon himself to correct it. But he would also feel happy that Seokmin cared that much for him that he would erase anything that threatened his happiness.

Joshua shakes his head of the thoughts. All of this was all a big hypothetical. Although, Joshua still felt himself smiling slightly that Seokmin was so enveloped in him that he would do something so crazy. Joshua didn't know if that was something to smile over though.

The grin leaves his face. He exhales deeply. All a hypothetical. Joshua tells himself.

Joshua empties the vacuum in the now full trash. He ties off the trash bag and leaves his apartment to go to the trash shoot.

The bodyguards that Seokmin had ordered to watch over Joshua while he wasn't there had been stationed right outside his door but he convinced Seokmin to have them moved to the lobby of his building. Joshua still wanted to retain some of his normalcy and privacy.

Seokmin was hesitant but still obeyed Joshua's wish and ordered his bodyguards to the lobby of the building. Seokmin could tell it was important to Joshua to not feel like a prisoner. He was grateful to Seokmin that he always did everything he could to make him happy.

Joshua opens the trash shoot and drops his bag inside. It slides down a few centimeters but immediately gets stuck. Joshua sighs and tries to push the trash down. It goes down a little further but it was still stuck and now out of Joshua's reach.

"Ugh." Joshua groans in annoyance. He'll have to go back to his apartment and get a broom to finish pushing the trash down. He knew he couldn't leave it like that.

Joshua closes the shoot and goes to retrieve the broom from his apartment when someone grabs onto his wrist roughly. Joshua gasps and turns to see the super of his building looking very angry.