Panthera Onca ➳ Derek Hale

07. Restraint

Jade's P.O.V

   Isaac and Erica started getting more and more curious about everything that was happening and Derek couldn't give them all the answers. Well, to be honest, he didn't want to give them all the answers since they might run off. I get them. Things are getting much more complicated and they're scared for their lives. They're baby werewolves, they're not trained enough.

   "So why do we need their help?" Isaac asked Derek. Well... Derek's betas aren't strong enough to help him fight the kanima and Gerard. Scott can help him since he and his friends are better than Derek's betas in combat.

   "Because it's harder to kill than I thought and I still don't know who it is." Derek answered.

   "And they do?" Isaac was questioning Scott's power and knowledge. I rolled my eyes as I leaned against the wall, listening to them.

   "They might. Which is why I need one of you to get on their good side." Derek wants them to befriend with Scott and Stiles? Isn't their alliance enough? And does he think they're that stupid?

   "Mm. Scott or Stiles?" Erica asked. Fuck, just hearing her makes my blood heat up. I can't hear her arrogant voice. She gained much confidence overnight and her cocky attitude... Someone needs to teach her a lesson and Derek's not the one to do that. He doesn't care enough to do that.

   "Either." Derek ordered. 

   "You know, the full moon's coming, Derek." Isaac reminded him. I don't feel so good about this full moon. Derek and I need to control 3 betas that have no power against the full moon. It's not going to be easy. Young werewolves who can't control themselves under the full moon's influence are very dangerous.

   "I'm aware of that." Derek replied as he opened up a trunk full of restraints. He pulled out chains and straps. Every time I see these I think about how hard it was to control my powers during full moons. It took me too much time to control myself. Werejaguars are more ancient, so we have a hard time finding a way to control our primitive animalistic urges. My ancestors used their berserkers to hold them down and make sure they're safe during full moons. My dad was against that. He hated how berserkers were made and never dared to harm humans' lives. 

   "Oh my, these look comfortable." Erica sarcastically commented. She should say thanks that Derek's helping them. Alphas like Peter don't take care of their betas.

   "You said you were gonna teach us to change whenever we wanted." Isaac noted, being hesitant. Everything's happening too fast, he can't help them now, even if he wishes to. They're not doing well, I'm sure they won't understand how to control themselves under the influence of something so strong as the full moon.

   "There hasn't been time." Derek responded. 

   "But if you have to lock us up during the full moon, that means - that means you're alone against the Argents." No, he's not. I can't believe I'm helping his betas. I shouldn't do that. He doesn't deserve a drop of my help. I'm so stupid.

   "They haven't found us." 

   "Yet! So how about we forget the kanima?" Isaac's scaring Derek's betas. This is the wrong time to rebel. We need to be united. If he continues... We can't deal with it right now. There's enough to deal with already.

   "We can't! There was something about the way Gerard looked at it. He wasn't afraid- at all. I don't know what he knows or what he's planning. But I'm sure about one thing. We have to find it first." Derek gave Isaac the answer he wanted. 

   "I know you don't trust me, but you should listen to Derek. We're only trying to help you." I commented, trying to soften the air. They're full of anger and they need to control themselves.

   "How come you're siding with him after everything he had done to you?" Isaac asked me. I don't know why I'm helping him. Maybe it's a force of habit to help him with his fuck-ups. I think I'm used to it.

   "Because I know what it's like to be in your place."

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   Scott and Stiles brought in Erica who was having an epileptic seizure. That was confusing to me until I heard that she was infected with the kanima's venom. That's not good.

    "Hold her up." Derek ordered Stiles, and Stiles moved so they could lean her on him and Scott and I held her down. We need to make her body heal, but the venom's making her numb.

   "Is she dying?" Stiles asked. 

   "She might, I-" Derek paused for a second. He's also afraid. I can sense how fast his heart was beating. He cares. He cares about Erica. "Which is why this is gonna hurt." He broke her arm to trigger the healing process and she screamed. My body began absorbing her pain. I felt surprised since I didn't use my powers to do so. It automatically helped her.

   "You broke her arm!" 

   "It'll trigger the healing process. I still gotta get the venom out. This is where it's really gonna hurt." He squeezed her arm strongly and she screamed again until she calmed down. Derek kept squeezing her arm. The venom, with her blood, dripped on the floor and it wasn't some small amount. Shit.

   "Stiles... You make a good Batman." Erica murmured as she breathed, still calming down. After a few seconds Derek stopped and got out of the subway car. I followed him. He seemed to be relieved, but he's still upset.

   "You know who it is." Scott told him.

   "Jackson." Derek replied. He's not stupid. , I'm sure he was onto that a long time ago. I'm not even surprised he knew that.

   "You just wanted Erica to confirm it, didn't you?" Derek looked at me instead of Scott. I don't know why he looked at me. "I'm gonna help you stop him as part of your pack. If you want me in, fine. But we'll do it on one condition. We're gonna catch him, not kill him." 

   "And?" 

   "And we do it my way."

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   "Can I be honest with you?" Derek asked me. I nodded, feeling curious at what he has to say. "I know I've changed in your eyes." Only in my eyes? "But I'm forcing you into my pack because you need someone to protect you, and before you say anything, you cannot survive Gerard alone. If he catches you, he'll kill you, and Scott won't be able to help you with that."

   "We both know you're full of shit." I responded and he raised his eyebrows. "What you did was an abuse. You were and still are wrong. I joined you only to help Scott and make this alliance work. I won't get back by your side, if that's what you're hoping for. I'm done."

   "Jade-" I shook my head.

   "You really fucked up this time. Kidnapping me? Injecting Ketamine?? What the fuck is this? Did you become insane?"

   "I know."

   "No, you don't. If you knew, you wouldn't have done that. Fuck, I would have never done something like that to anyone, let alone you. If you really loved me-"

   "You know I love you-"

   "Stop. Stop lying. That wasn't love. That was obsession. Sick obsession. And you got all the chances you could get. Enough is fucking enough." I walked away, but he grabbed my arm and I grabbed his back. "Let go."

   "You could've left."

   "No, I couldn't! You drugged me. And don't you dare take your toxic masculinity on me." He rolled his eyes. "Move your arm, or I'll break it."

   "You're not scary." I attacked his arm and broke it. It's enough. I won't take his fucking bullcrap anymore. "Ugh!!" At least it got him to let go of me.

   "Get a fucking hold on yourself, Derek. This isn't you. If you want us to be friends again, you'll have to work so hard. I won't go easy on you or your death grips. I may have been weak at your power before, but not anymore. I'll use all my force on you. I'm done hiding my powers."

   "Jade-" I walked away, going somewhere far from him. I won't let him get his way anymore.

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