Dark and light: The Shadows

Chapter 33

Eva showed the store assistant the picture of the couch we both agreed on. She dragged me along eagerly, but really, I just wanted to get home. It may be the cold December weather, but I know for certain that I'd rather be curled up in bed.

We saw the couch - and a beanbag apparently - and I had to say I was impressed on how well they brought the sketched image to life. Yes, Sabrina instructed me on how to sketch it. Or just held my hand, and I saw the most of it in her mind.

The two engaged in a conversation, and I wandered away to the section with kitchen tables. An assistant came up to me and asked if he could assist. I shook my head once I glanced at him and went back to browsing, praying he didn't follow close behind. To be safe, though, I stayed within a few feet of a couple of wandering families. I wanted to ask if these were for sure totally new and not passed down and refurbished. I wanted the house's energy to be anew. I wasn't ready to approach that alone and with a male, though.

I just held onto my ring while I kept my eyes on the table and hoped that she came soon, and this man stayed 3 yards away, as he had been. The good thing is, I didn't totally turn back around and walk away the way I did when I took that drive and subsequent store stroll in a store. We went back in, with me holding her hand tightly. I had to purchase something for Christmas from then.

"Chicaaa,"

I whipped my head to the right, then sighed. Sabrina wrapped her arm around me, and I smiled. She placed a kiss on my cheek, and I pointed to the table.

"Oh, this is lovely," She looked at the price. "Not that bad of a price either. I thought we'd have to order a resin-centered table."

"I'm paying, though." I gently squeezed her hand.

"I got this. Don't you wanna make sure of that the bank account for Nami?" she stepped more into my field of view.

"I mean, it's already good looking for a month, but we have much more years to go. Don't worry. This won't hinder it so much. It's beautiful, right?"

She looked at me and slowly smiled. "Yeah, she is."

A blush filled my cheeks as she kissed me, and then she approached the man who was still more than happy to assist.

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"You need to eat something,"

I held my hands in my head and slowly shook it.

"I'm getting you a fruit bowl right now and a dietician when we move, so you can eat and still be satisfied about your weight. You don't want your hair thinning again, honey." Eva rubbed her hand over my back before exiting the vehicle.

I had this kind of pounding headache. It was so bad I could feel the pulsing behind my eyes. I kept my eyes closed and repeated the assigned affirmations from the hypnotherapist. I sent a message update to Mom, and then to my 'support person' on Twitter. I looked at the opening for a daycare person as well, but I was highly debating wanting to be in the same area of the school if I didn't need to be. The head lady could even be upset with me for not accepting the summer offer, I didn't want to see I disappointed her.

I squeezed my eyes shut after making sure the doors were indeed locked. Then I repeated an affirmation for my previous statement.

Everything just felt difficult currently. There was not a greater longing than to move though. Yes, I've gotten better at managing my emotions, but I just felt like I needed my own space, and like I needed to start over. And I got to start over with my partner which I deem amazing. I have my sister - who was gonna live with us - and there was plenty of space for gardening and another house. I had a feeling Anya wasn't gonna be there long-term. Abosk will probably be in some other country. Or state as well.