Why Fall For Him

Chapter 30- When Finally Happy

5 Year Time Jump- Justin's pov
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You can fight for someone all you want. You can express your love and say how sorry you are for what you have done. What you can't do is make them love you back and you defiantly cannot make them forgive you for all of the horrible things you have done to them in your past. I look back at my life and I see so many mistakes, except for two: Selena and our wonderful daughter. I must admit, I was high and wasted out of my mind for most of our relationship, but I cannot forget the good things that happened to us. I must admit I was an abusive asshole who took his life for granted. I had the world given to me and I allowed everything to be taken away. Sure, I've fought like hell for our relationship since Tessa was born. What I have come to realize is that I was too late. I cannot express my sorrow and loss. She had found another love. She has found someone who will never lay a hand on her unless it's to show affection or to prop her pillow up on the couch when she has fallen asleep. She has found someone who will always try his best to make her happy. He will clean the house when she least expects it and even when she asks him to. He will paint her toenails when she's 6 months pregnant and can no longer reach her feet because her belly is just that big. He sends her random 'I love you' texts when she's at work. He the type of guy who is good to our daughter and treats her like his own. He's the type of guy who makes sure I see my daughter every night so I can tuck her in and tell her stories as she drifts off to sleep. He's the type of guy to buy Selena ice cream and chocolates in the middle of the day because she has period cramps and can bare no more pain. He's the type of guy to shave his beard because she doesn't like messy facial hair. He's the type of guy to make sure she is given the world. He's the guy who she's been waiting for her entire life. He's the love of her life. It was never me or George. I wish like hell it was me, but it's not me; it's Caleb. He's a nice guy and he treats my girl like treasure. He's the father of her third child. He's everything I couldn't be. He's her knight in shining armor. He did everything right the first time. They dated for a year. Engaged. Married. A kid on the way. Then another.
It took me a while to be okay with her loving another man. I had to learn how to cope with the pain without using drugs or alcohol. My sweet daughter helped me through those times, of course, but most of all I got through it all through my faith. I see a whole new world because Jesus forgave me for my sins. He didn't care what I had done, he forgave me for all of the terrible things I had done to the women I claimed that I loved. I no longer see a dark world around me, I see beauty and love. I see all of the wonderful and beautiful traits that Selena has in my daughter everyday. I no longer wake up every day wishing somehow my heart stopped working the night before. My heart still breaks, but knowing I have a friend in Jesus makes everything better. I still miss Selena everyday. I would give everything to call her mine, but I know she is happy. For the first time in a while, I can confidently say that I am happy as well. I now attend AA meetings two times a week. I see my daughter every day. I've met someone, too. She's a sweetheart. Her name is Kendal. She's a girl who I'll treat the same way that Caleb treats Selena. She has blonde hair and her body is perfect. I don't mean the type of body that turns me on every time I see her in a tight dress. Don't get me wrong, I like it. Actually, I love it. No, her body is beautiful and I'm going to respect it and her. Her curves are perfect, but are you curious as to what my favorite crave is? Her smile. It's beautiful. It's like nothing I've ever seen before. It's the only curve that I'll think about when I picture our wedding. I don't mean to compare both women, because they are different in every aspect. When I think of Kendal, my heart jumps in circles and my cheeks heat up. It's been two years and I still feel this way. It's been two years and I've never seen her undressed. It's not that I don't want to, but I want to show her that that is not what I want from our relationship. I want something real. Sex is great. That's how I got my daughter. But, it is also personal and recently I feel like it means something. We both want each other in every way, but we think it's best that we wait until our wedding night. I haven't told her this yet: I want an abundant amount of children with her. I want a mini Kendal's running around the house with her attitude and her great personality. I want to buy a house for her with a pool in the back. I don't care if I have to get on my hands and knees to make it happen. She loved to sit out by the pool and read a great book. She just finished Paper Towns. She loves to get a tan and pull her hair up into a messy while she soaks up the sun. She loves to push me in the pool when I least expect it because she knows it drives me crazy. I gotta say, I thought I could never love anyone as much as I loved Selena, but I was wrong; I love this girl so much more. A love I never thought possible. A love that is greater than Noah and Ally's. Yes, I've read the Notebook. And have see the movie countless times. My point is, for years I was miserable. I wanted to end my life more than once. I don't mean to link my happiness solely to Kendal, but she is a large inspiration to my happiness. I have found happiness through love, my daughter, and most of all my faith. I cannot name a time where I have been happier. There is no doubt in my might that I will always love Selena. She is the mother of my first born child and she has given me the greatest gift. It's just that I can honestly say that I will love Kendal whole heartedly and will all of the love I have to offer. I will protect her. I will let her in. I won't push her away. I won't let her push me away. I won't stop loving her. When we fight, I will never let her go to sleep that night without apologizing. I will dedicate time to us even when we have five kids running around the house. I promise to take her to Universal every year, because that is her favorite place. I promise to take her to Burger Fi every Saturday after we go to the beach. I promise to be honest with her always. Most of all, I promise to love her. I promise that one day will walk Tessa down the isle and my baby girl will be sitting next to Selena and Caleb. I promise that I'll be there for our kid's wedding. I promise that if she leaves this earth before I do that I'll watch the Notebook once a week, because that's what we always do. I promise that I will maintain her grave. I will thank God every night that he blessed me with this girl.

"Justin?"
I am suddenly back into reality. We're at Burger Fi; it's Saturday 6:30 pm. The view behind this girl is beautiful but I am not distracted by it because no view could compare to this girl. She's a masterpiece; an art. I look at her sweet face. I'm so deeply, madly in love with you. She cups my cheeks into her hand. There's that perfect smile. Her dimples are now apparent in her smile. I chuckle because it just might be one of my favorite things in the world.
"Yes, baby girl?"
I say to Kendal. She shakes her head lightly and rubs her nose against mine.
"Nothing baby. I just wanted to hear your voice."
She says with the sweetest smile. I have to marry this girl. "Wanna know something? It may be a little crazy." She says. Trust me, nothing you say is crazy to me.
"Always," I say.
"I want kids and a house." She pauses. "I want a house and I want three cats. I want a dog so that my kids will grow up in a family with pets, just like I did. I want to live in the city." Yet again, she pauses. She's smiling. She takes her hand and places it on mine.
"I want all of this with you. And I want to come here as much as possible, because these burgers are just amazing. I want to watch movies late at night even though I know I won't pay much attention to it because while we cuddle, all I can hear is the best of your heart and feel the warm beat of your breath while it hits my face. I want to call Tessa my daughter. I want all of you, I do Justin. You aren't perfect, but you are perfect to me." In one second, our lips collide. This kiss is passionate and it's sexy. I open my eyes and cover hers. Several of the Burger Fi staff carry out six dozen burgers that spell out, "will you marry me baby girl?"
With them they carry her favorite chocolate milkshake with fries and place them on the table. I remove my hands from her eyes and drop to one knee. It takes a moment for her to process my proposal, but when she finally figures it's out, happy tears flood her eyes. She can barely form the words, but I know it's a yes. I slide her ring on her finger. Again, our lips collide and this kiss is more passionate than the last.
"I love you, baby girl!"
"Baby, I love you!"
My heart is full of joy. I've never loved anyone as much as I love this girl.
"I'll never stop loving you." I whisper in her ear. She says the same back to me. Our voices are equally shaky. She flashes that perfect smile. I can't wait to see that smile every day for the rest of my life.

The end.
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Hey guys, I'm so sorry for the long update. So, this is the end of Why Fall For Him. If you would, let me know what you think of it? I would appreciate that. (: If I can just say one thing and give one little piece of advice, don't put all of your happiness in one person alone. If something happens, your happiness will be torn all at once. I found happiness through my faith, which is why I felt it was important incorporate that into Justin's story. Thank you for reading this, and I hope that you all are happy and if you aren't, well I will defiantly pray for you and hope that you find happiness as well. ❤️