Why Fall For Him

Chapter14

Chapter14

Why Fall For Him

*Justin's pov*

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I paced back and forth as I ran my fingers through my hair. I banged my fist against the wall and slid down the wall. The more I think about the break up, the more I break down and fall apart. I can't stand not being with her. I can't stand not being able to wake up next to her, and think to myself how beautiful she is. It's driving me crazy. It's been two months since I last saw her and she hasn't made any effort to make any contact with me. I've texted her everyday but she doesn't reply. I can't stand being alone. Feeling alone. I cry at night, thinking about her. I've never fully told her how I felt about her. I thought she knew. I didn't think I had to express my feelings day by day. But I guess I was wrong. Maybe if I did express the way I felt for her, maybe I wouldn't stand alone in the rain. Maybe my bed wouldn't feel so much bigger than it did before. Maybe I wouldn't have to beg to speak to her, only to be ignored. I've fell for someone who doesn't want me. Knowing she doesn't need me, hurts the most.

Selena's last words to me rang through my head.

"Change." I heard her voice so clearly in my head. I felt like I was re-living that moment. My heart ached and I felt like I was fighting for air to breath.

I began to ask myself, why did you let her go? Why did you helplessly stand by her car as she was leaving?

I couldn't seem to find an answer.

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*Selena's pov*

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"Selena, wait." George grabbed my arm as I was walking out of the door to go to work. A smile crossed his face and his cheeks turned a pinkish red color.

"What?" I said as I faintly smile. He grabbed me by the waist and pulled me closer to his body. His shirt was halfway buttoned, and the warmth of his body sent chills throughout my body. Butterflies fluttered my stomach. He bit his lip, making me weak. I was so calm, but on the it was the complete opposite.

"You're making me so nervous." He stuttered. I couldn't help but smile.

"Um, will you be my-" he paused as he ran his fingers through his hair.

"Oh my God." He whispered nervously. He grabbed my hand and our fingers intertwined. Adrenaline rushed throughout my body. I was nervous and I couldn't help but feel like I was on top of the world. He makes me feel so special, something I've never felt before.

"I want to be able to call you mine. I want to give you as much as I can. So, with that being said, Selena, will you be my girlfriend?" He finally said. His voice was shaking. I could tell he was nervous. I hesitated to answer him because honestly, I don't know what to say. I've been waiting for him to ask me for four months and now that's it's finally happening, I'm not sure what to say. I thought I wanted this more than anything but now, I'm not sure. I starred at the ground, I didn't want him to see me struggling to answer him. I didn't want to say no but I also don't want to say yes if I wasn't.

"George, I-" I stuttered. "I need time to think about it." I said. I hated to say it, but I couldn't do something I wasn't ready for. George nodded his head. "Okay, think about." He said. He cupped my face with the palm of his hands. He planted a soft kiss on my forehead. A smile crossed both of our faces.

George's words repeated in my head over and over again. I still wasn't sure what I wanted. I walked inside the back entrance of Starbucks. The only thing that was on my mind was, George. I kept asking myself if I was ready to move on from Justin, although it has been four months since the breakup.