Why Fall For Him

Chapter 7

Why Fall For Him

Chapter 7

*Selena's pov*

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Justin studied my face. I studied his too. I could tell he was scared, like he was hiding sorry hung. He couldn't look me in the eyes when he talked to me. He would stare at the floor as he spoke or he would play with his fingers as he rested his body against the wall.

I knew he was lying just by the way he was acting. He acted scared, almost terrified.

"I have to get to work." He said quickly. He walked into the closet. He grabbed his suit and tie. He set his tie on the bed as he quickly put his business suit. He was putting his clothes on so fast that he tripped a few times.

"Whatever Justin." I hissed. I grabbed my purse as I stormed out of the room. I was dressed in a buttoned collared shirt with tight, black, leggings. As of now, I'm working at Starbucks just until I can find another job.

"Love you." I heard him sigh as I stormed out of the house. I passed a unfamiliar car but, I didn't care to pay any attention to it.

I'm just so ready to leave Justin. He's so hard to figure out. He means everything to me. I love him but at the and time I don't. I can't explain how I feel. I've tried leaving him before but I realized I couldn't do it. I need him more than I need oxygen to breath. But at the same time I don't need or want him. I can't make up my mind. It's so hard to let go of something or someone you've always loved. It's so hard to let go. I would have let a long time ago if I wasn't afraid of him. I would have left a long time ago if I wasn't afraid of missing him. I would have left a long time ago if I didn't love him.

Ten minutes later, I pulled into the Starbucks parking lot. I didn't particularly want to go to work considering I'm not feeling so well. I feel nauseous and light headed but I'd rather come to work than be home by myself.

I walked behind the counters then checked in. I'm thirty minutes late but no one noticed. I put an apron around my waist then tied the string behind my neck. Business was surprisingly slow today considering we're usually busy all day. The building was quiet. I didn't mind the silence. It was peaceful and made me feel somewhat better.

Right as soon as I was about to sit behind the cash register, someone burst through the door, screaming my name.

I looked up. I stumbled as I ran from behind the counters, and into George's arms.

Instantly, butterflies fluttered my stomach.

"I was worried about you." He said, as he wrapped his arms around my body. I wrapped my body around his, then rested my head on his shoulders. We stood in each other's arms for a minute or two, then he slowly let go.

"Why?" I asked. He shrugged his shoulders. A smile crossed his face as he cupped my face with the palm of his hands. He leaned in as I moved away. He rested his forehead on mine. "You didn't answer me the last few times I texted you." He stated. Which was a lie, because the only time I didn't text him was yesterday because Justin had my phone.

"It's not my fault." I whispered.

I saw anger grow in his eyes. He clinched his jaw, starring at me fiercely.

"What did he do?" He asked.

"N-n-nothing." I lied. I buried my face in his shoulders.

"Don't lie to me." He said harshly. I've never been able to figure out why he's so protective over me but once he finds out Justin does something to me, he goes crazy. We've been best friends for ten years so the thought of him possibly liking me is so awkward.

"He didn't do anything! It doesn't matter anyway!" I yelled. I walked behind the counter, and through the back door. I left the building. I heard George run behind me. I kept walking, ignoring everything he was saying to me.

He grabbed me by my waist, pulling me closer. I closed my eyes, as I rested my head on his shoulder. He lifted my chin up, with his index finger. He cupped my face with the palm of his hands.

"It matters to me." He whispered. He leaned in. His lips touched mine, as our lips moved in sync. Butterflies fluttered my stomach. One half if me felt guilt for kissing him back, but the other half of me wanted to stay like this forever. I wanted to stay on his arms forever. I felt safe. I felt like we were the only ones who mattered. I knew what I was doing was wrong, but it felt so right.

"I've got to go." I said as I pulled away. I sprinted to my car, not looking back. He ran towards my car. He tapped on my window. Tears formed in my eyes. I blinked several times so he wouldn't notice the tears in my eyes. I felt bad for kissing him, but I was stuck in the moment. He's my best friend, we aren't supposed to kiss each other especially because I'm engaged. I drove out of the parking lot, as I drove to Justin's work.