Why Fall For Him

Chapter 10

Why Fall For Him

Chapter 10

*Selena's pov*

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I re-applied my make up before I walked to George's doorstep. I felt empty as I thought of Justin. Everything we did flashed back in my head. I thought about us and everything we could have been. I thought of the Justin I fell in love with. I can't figure out why he changed so much. One day he came home from work upset and broken. I could he was crying by the looks on his face. It was almost like he had lost his best friend. But that was impossible because I was the only friend he had. I didn't ask him what happened, I felt like I had already known.

Ever since then, he's never been the same. Slowly, he began to abuse me and cheat with several different girls. He would stay in a hotel for a night, have sex with them without saying a word afterwards.

I kept telling myself he would change but he never did. If it weren't for the baby, I probably would have stayed. I probably would have accepted his apology, and everything would have been the same. I wouldn't have this feeling of emptiness and heartbreak. But I can't risk his or her life. I can't bring my child up knowing he or she could be at risk because of their father.

I slowly got out of the car.

"Selena!" I turned around. My heart almost stopped. "Justin." I faintly whispered.

I quickly ran to George's door step, trying to avoid getting soaked. The rain was freezing. As I was knocking on the door, I heard someone call my name. His voice sent chills run throughout my body. My heart began beating a little faster. I turned around, noticing it was Justin. He stood in the rain soaked with a single rose in his hand. As I was about to say something, I choked up. I was surprised to see him.

"Wait!" He said. His voice was weak. He ran in front of me. Both of us stood in silence. He ran his fingers through his hair a few times before he said anything.

"We need to talk." He barely said. He was trying to hold back the tears in his eyes.

We stood in silence for a few minutes. He starred at me. His facial expression was blank and his eyes were red.

"Selena, i'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for the past, the present, the whole situation with Jacque. I'm human and I make mistakes but life didn't come with instructions!" He weakly said. He stroked my cheek with his right thumb.

As I noticed the pain he was hiding in his eyes, I felt like I had been shot right in the heart. I felt weak. I hated to see him like this.

"And if you think for one second that Jacque is pregnant with my child, then you must be crazy. She's trying to tare us apart. She did a good job." He paused as he wiped the tears from my eyes. I began shivering. Both Justin and I were soaked. The rain was icy cold, and the temperature is about 30 degrees.

"I mean look at us now."

Neither one of us said a word to each other for a minute or two. He starred at me. I couldn't help but notice the pain in his eyes.

He leaned in closer. Within a few seconds, I felt his soft lips press on mine. I wanted to smile but, I couldn't. I let the tears in my eyes fall. As I was pulling away, he cupped my face with the palm of his hands. He held me close. Each time he lost his his balance, he took one step closer to my car. He leaned against my car as we continued to kiss. We kissed passionately and within a few seconds our tongues began to fight for dominance. I pulled away and instantly we fought for air. Our breathing was heavy. I rested my forehead on his.

"I-I-I can't be with you." I faintly

whispered. His facial expression changed completely. He looked at me with pain in his eyes.

I closed my eyes trying to find the right words to say. He studied the expression on my face.

"This time is different." He whispered. But I didn't fall for it. I've heard those words a hundred times before.

"Don't make a promise you can't keep." I whispered.

"Then I'll do anything it takes. I can't loose you, not now, not ever." He said.

He walked me to the door. I leaned in, kissing him passionately. I leaned against the door, giving him more control. I couldn't let go, no matter how hard I tried. As he pulled away, he held out his hand. He was holding a single rose. He faked a smile as he handed me the rose.

"You know where to find me if you need me." I nodded my head then opened the door. I heard the showering running, indicating George was in the shower. I leaned against the door after I shut it. All I could think was,

'How could I let him walk away so easy? All I ever did was push him away.'