𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐞𝐬

21. Lets think rationally

February 21st 1990

"You jealous huh? Jealous you can't do this." Ronnie said dancing in front of me.

You know how yo momma be looking at you when she ready to beat the shit outta you? Yeah that was me to Ronnie.

"Uh huh look at that."

I just stared at his dumbass. What else could I do?

He stopped, breathing hard and looking at me.

"You wish you can do that huh." He smiled like a kid.

I could feel my nostrils flaring.

"I can teach yo-"

"Ronnie get out my fucking face before I take the lil handful of eyebrows you got!"

He brought a hand up to his face and touched his eyebrow "You ain't even gotta do allat. You know you wrong."

"And you unfaithful so I guess we even."

"Alright bruh."

I smiled at him "Thank you coming with me."

"You know it ain't nothing."

Today was the day of the Grammys. Obviously I couldn't come because I was rehearsing for tour but Ronnie was nice enough to come hang out with me during rehearsals. After breaking my back for hours we took a break. All of my crew sitting on the floor in front of a tv waiting.

Me and Ronnie stood outside of the dance studios door.

He crossed his arms looking at me "you know you'll win right?"

"You don't know that."

"D you got the tightest album out right now, you'll win."

I sighed looking out the doors window "I remember having this one conversation with Tyree, it was after my grandmas life party thing...he always said I would do things that I couldn't even begin to imagine" I bit my bottom lip to try and hide the need for crying I felt. I sniffed "He said I would win a grammy too...and he never even heard the album." He always believed in me.

"You miss him?"

"Always...its on. Come one." I opened the door and sat next to my group of dancers.

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April 4th 1989

"Hey! You're awake!" I said flashing a huge smile.

"Shhhhhhhshshshshs!"  He said aggressively.

"Wha-"

"Boog hush my head is pounding yo." He said squinting his eyes and holding his head.

"Well you did go dumb on the liquor...here this'll help." I said sitting on the bed next to him and handing him a bottle of tylenol and a glass water.

He took it with his eyes still closed "is it always this bright in here?"

I chuckled "yeah my grandma says sunlight is good for the skin so every room has these huge windows with curtains that's only there for decorative purposes."

"You deadass?"

"Mhm well all except for my grandfather's office he says he doesn't give a damn about any sun light because at least the dark won't give you skin cancer."