Philophobia 2 (Yandere! Sugawara X FemReader!)

| Part XVII: Major Upheavals |

 

I look at him, wide eyed. I'm not sure what to say or how to react. I can't say that this isn't what he thinks it might be because... it is.

I find myself searching for excuses as I stand there, slack-jawed. And I'm not really quite sure why, because we're not dating— we are far from it.

Kakeru eyes us both. Hinata also pans his gaze between the two of us, eventually laying his eyes on me. I guess he just wants to see how I may react. And I don't blame him for his awkward silence... he doesn't really know Kakeru.

I notice my coworker's lips. They tug and curl downwards. He's frowning at me, scowling at me— there's a lot of feelings behind them.

"I... I uhm... I really should get going now, Hinata. Thanks for the lunch." I try to crack a smile, but my quivering lips makes it quite awkward. The only thing I can feel is Kakeru's prying eyes, and as he steps forward, I can hear his dress shoes sliding against the gravel.

Is he... is he really approaching us right now?

"Oh, yeah... no, no worries. Should I come by to pick you up later?" Hinata catches himself. He then reels himself away from me, and he swabs his thumb against his nose as if it was going to make his blush disappear. I still feel his hands around my arms as he reluctantly pulls away, tearing himself from me.

Is it terrible that a part of me wants to stay here with him?

But as I turn my eyes back towards Kakeru, I can see that he has me totally figured out. He's scowling at me with his eyes alone— he looks a little hysterical. And eventually, Kakeru is standing just beside us both, placing both his hands inside of his pockets.

"There will be no need for that." He confidently speaks, turning his nailing gaze towards the ginger. His eyes are wide as he penetrates, but Hinata just looks back with a bit of a shaken stare.

"Me and Y/N... we have plans tonight. You must understand that, no?"

My lips part. But we don't. We have never planned, coordinated— I have never even /thought/ about going on a date with Kakeru. Is he... is he really jealous right now?

Before I could even reply, Kakeru is nodding and Hinata is passing the both of us heart wrenching glances. Something like, "how could you"? But he soon softens. I think it's cause he's recalled our previous conversations.

Regardless... this is quite the annoying situation for me.

Hinata awkwardly averts his gaze, peeling his eyes over to me as he leans back— he's attempting to give himself some space without taking a step back.

And I think he is somehow missing it. Maybe it's because he is looking at me, but he's missing out on something else...

Kakeru always seemed so gentle. I didn't know he was capable of looking at another human being the way he is looking at Hinata now. Eyes wide, slightly frantic, gnawing. He's smiling, but the malice in his eyes... it looks familiar.

But Hinata finally speaks. "Oh... Okay. Y/N, I'll walk you to your classes tomorrow, just text me later..."

I wanna say something, but a part of me doesn't really want to. I am definitely the reason why these misunderstandings get out of hand, but I've always been a pacifist. Maybe I'm keeping quiet because Hinata hasn't noticed... I think it's better to talk to Kakeru about this after.