you may not realize it at the moment, but you have purpose. you have so much to live for.
7/17/15 was the day I was going to go through with my plans. I can't describe how stupid it was of me to want to throw away something so good. It was selfish, honestly. there are so many people who care about me, I just wasn't thinking clearly enough to believe that. I was insecure about everything. I still am, in a sense. I've just learned to control myself better.
after 8 days of treatment, coming home was the biggest eye opener for me.
the moment I seen my best friend, I started crying. my boyfriend was there when I got home and I tried really hard not to cry, but I cried that night; not because I was sad. I was far from sad.
this had brought me closer to my family, my best friend, and the love of my life. I realize now what I would have lost if I had gone through with it. I wouldn't trade anyone of them for the entire universe.
appreciate everything and everyone you have. you only have one life, so live it to the fullest.
a.j.
