Why must I make everything so complicated? I can't help but think about this. I overthink literally every situation, but sometimes my thoughts are rational.
I'm so sad.
I feel like he's only with me because he had no one else at the time and now he's just stuck with me. I'm not fun. I don't like to drink and party constantly.
I just feel like I'm holding him back. Then again, not really. He does what he wants anyway. I feel pathetic for even talking about this but hell, this is my book.
I feel like an embarrassment, honestly. He is so small compared to me. When it's just us, I don't feel as bad, but around his friends I feel it. I can feel them staring at me and wondering what a girl like me is doing with someone like him.
I feel like crying. I haven't spent any time with him in a week. He's in school now and he's so busy with his friends.
He's going to break up with me soon, I can feel it. What does any boy want with a sad, boring, overweight, embarrassment of a girl?
If he did, I would understand why. I wouldn't be mad. I just want him happy. That's all I've ever wanted since before he was mine and even after he breaks my heart I will always want the absolute best for him.
Always.
a.j.
