you fucking broke my heart to pieces and I can't help but pick up the broken shards and put it all back together, just to give it back to you. sure, it may cut my fingers and bleed like hell, but I still want you.
maybe you broke my heart so I would dump you. I would save you the trouble of breaking it even more if you had to dump me, because maybe you don't want to be with me anymore.
I wish you would just tell me you didn't want me anymore. that way I can try and get over you, but right now, there's no way that could happen.
all I see when I look at you is the truth in your eyes when you told me you'd never hold another like you do me. when you promised to never kiss another pair of lips that aren't mine while in this relationship. and I believed it. I believe you meant it then, too.
It hurts. my chest hurts, my head is pounding and all I want to do is forget that this even happened. it makes me feel like absolute shit. I wasn't enough for you. even if you were drunk, I still wasn't enough.
you are the one who made me believe in love. I will forever be in love with you.
I'm just not sure if I can do it again. If I can hurt anymore than I already do. I'm not sure I can survive it.
- slightly intoxicated midnight thoughts
a.j.
