when will my chest stop hurting at the thought of you? how many nights must I lie awake remembering everything we have been through together? eight months without you and I still can't stop my heart from sinking when someone mentions your name. how much longer will I have to go through this?
personally, I think it's unfair how I'm left broken whereas you left with pieces of me that I will never be able to get back and you are fine with that.
you are fine without me.
I so desperately want to hate you for what you did to me, but it is because of what you have done for me that I will forever love you.
having to mourn you is worse than mourning the death of my own mother.
a.j.
