i am sad.
it's so hard for me to explain myself, knowing that there is eyes and ears everywhere. there is always going to be someone who thinks that you are crazy; or looking for a way to get attention.
no one has ever told me that I was trying to draw attention to myself, but I feel as if that is what everyone is thinking. I never talk about my sadness, my depression if you will. I don't have the courage to even get the right medical treatment that I may possibly need. I don't have the heart to own up to my parents, to my friends. sure, they know that I was sad a time ago, but I guarantee they cannot fathom what it has become now.
this is suffocating me, and I am so sick of not being able to breathe.
a.j.
