Living Life(A Magcon Fanfic)

The Aftertaste

        I hung out after the party with Shawn and most of the guys to clean up and take all the stuff to my house.
       They had brought some cars and we all loaded them up with gifts or food or trash. I was alone in the barn with Shawn.

     I took out another box to his car. "I think that's it." I said, planting my hands on my hips and blowing out a huge breath.
     My face softened and I walked to Shawn. "What's wrong?" I asked.

    He shook his head and moved away. "Shawn!" I yelled to him. He was halfway out the door. He turned on his heel but didn't look at me. "Was it something I did?" He just shook his head. I was getting frustrated.
      I ran to him and turned his shoulder towards me. "I don't deserve you." He mumbled, still not looking at me.

     I gaped at him, that he could be worried about not being good enough for me. "Shawn, it would totally be the other way around. You are so successful and I haven't done anything. You have your career placed in front of you and I don't know what I'm even doing tomorrow." I said.
      "Did you really write that song for me?" I asked in a softer tone.

   He blushed and smiled sheepishly. "Was the song and presentation too much?" He asked.

     I placed both hands on his chest and looked straight into his deep brown eyes. "It was the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me." I slowly leaned in and pressed my lips to his. He responded quickly and wrapped his arms around my waist. This was perfect, this moment. This kiss was slower, more passionate that the last one.

We were in the middle of kissing when Tori came in. I quickly pulled away and my eyes widened. "Oh, sorry. Didn't know I was interrupting something." She said slyly then went back outside. I took one look at Shawn's face then burst out laughing. His mouth was open and he looked like he had just been caught by his own mom. Which, would have gone to the extreme in this situation.
"You're gonna catch bugs." I told him after I calmed down. He closed his mouth then let out an awkward laugh.

He got closer to me. "I don't think your sister likes me very much." We both giggled. "Now, where were we?" I leaned in slower and brushed my lips against his then backed away.

He looked like a kid on Christmas that was being told to go back to sleep. "Bye Shawn!" I called flirtatiously as I walked out of the barn. But when you're as awkward as I am, then I probably looked like a constipated chicken.
I hopped into the passengers seat of Tori's car. She just looked at me. "Shut up!" I told her.

"I didn't even say anything!" She defended and started the car.
"Yeah, well your face did." I said as we backed out and drove away from the barn.

"That doesn't even make any sense!" We continued out feud until about halfway home. "So, Shawn?" She asked.

I gave her a look. She returned it. "We kissed." I told her.
"I saw that. Both times." She said. "How long have you been crushing on him? Are you official yet?" She asked.

"Um, I am not crushing. And we're not." I clarified. I did not need my sister poking her nose into my business. But then again, I feel like I could talk about Shawn all day.
"Well, he's obviously infatuated with you." She pointed out. I just shook my head and stared out the window.

From all the books I've read, infatuation usually means love. But I've only known him for about a month. I can't love him. Not yet.

We got home and I helped put stuff away from the party. After that, I went straight to bed like a usual teenager. It was already 11:45 and I needed sleep.
But I couldn't actually fall asleep. I was tired. But I wouldn't shut down. Too many things had happened today and I can't process it all. But my brain likes to give me anxiety attacks and another question arose from the depths of my thoughts.

Do I stay here in Virginia or do I keep touring with the boys?

I don't want to leave them. No, I can't just throw everything I ever built up with them away. But I don't want to feel like a burden. I want to spend time with my dad and sister.

And on top of all that? I forgot to write a speech for my mother's funeral tomorrow. Which is less than 12 hours away. I groaned and ran my hands over my face.
I picked up my phone and scrolls through my social media. On Twitter, #HappyBirthdayAlli was trending. "What the hell?" I whispered to myself.

Nash posted some pictures from my party, most of them with captions like

At this sick surprise party for the Bae!

Look at the lovebirds!

#HappyBirthdayAlli Magcon loves you!

I stopped and looked at the second picture. It was one of my and Shawn kissing. Nash put it out there for everyone to see. The grainy image was pretty clear that we were kissing. I was going to get a lot of comments for that.

But for now, all I need is some sleep. I want to dream about kissing Shawn again like a normal teen. I want to sleep forever. I want to have an average life.

But that can't happen. Not lately. I've been through so much with these guys that I don't want to leave them. I don't even care anymore about the possibilities of them leaving me because I trust them. All of them.

They wouldn't let me down.

A/N: okay. So she's 16 and she kissed Shawn. Yes they are my OTP. SHALLISON 5 EVER. okay byeeeeee🌹