Living Life(A Magcon Fanfic)

Moping and Coping

We drove home from the airport. I think I was the most affected by Shawn's leave. I just stared out the window of Johnson's car. The Jacks and Taylor were in the car with me.
    "He's gonna be fine, Alli." Gilinsky said to me from the shotgun seat.
"I know that he'll be okay, but what about me?" I said, my anger getting the best of me. "I just need some time." I muttered under my breath. I stared out the window. Little snowflakes started to fall outside, the first snow of the winter. I know that Shawn really hates winter.

     As we drove back to the hotel, it got colder. The coldness seeped into the cracks of the car and it felt like a cold fist closing around my heart. This would be a long 3 months without him. He'll be introduced to other girls. Maybe he won't like me anymore when he comes back.

We got back to the hotel and I was going to stay with Matt tonight. We all crammed into the elevator and Aaron clicked the number 3. It was silent. And it was kind of getting on my nerves. "You know, I'm not going to break down crying if you just say a word." I said, slicing through the silence.
"I'm not that fragile." I said loudly. None of them looked at me. "If the rest of you guys can hold up, then so can I." I stated.
"Alli, none of us had a relationship with him like you did." Nash said to me. He was always the one to initiate things and the rest of the boys followed. Most of them nodded.

The elevator dinged and we all filed out and went separate ways to our rooms. Matt and I walked to our room at the end of the hall. He slid his key card in and it beeped green. We both walked in and Matt turned around to face me. "Alli, you don't have to be all tough in front of me." He said. "It's okay to cry." I nodded and sniffles a little.
"Thanks Matt. For everything." I walked past him and flopped down on the cushy bed. "I'm tired. I think I'm just going to hit the sack." I told him.

He nodded. "Okay cool. I'm just going to do some work stuff for a while." I nodded back and curled up in the comfy sheets. I soon fell asleep when Matt's head hit his pillow.

  
"Hey Alli!" Gilinsky called to me.
  "What?" I demanded grumpily.
  "Shawn sent me this picture. He hooked up with this chick on tour. She's hot, huh?" Gilinsky showed me a picture of a blonde girl.
  "Shut up." Tears blinded my eyes. The rest of the boys started laughing at me. Never Be Alone started playing in my head. I punched Gilinsky in the face.

   I gasped and sat up. It was all a dream, just a dream. I hadn't punched one of my best friends in the face. Shawn hadn't cheated on me. I wrapped my arms around my knees and rocked back and forth, taking deep breaths.
    Matt groaned and rolled over. Crap. I woke him up. "Alli? You okay?" He mumbled in his husky morning voice.

   "Matt, I'm fine. Go back to sleep." I tried. He just sat up and rubbed him eyes.
    "No you're not. You've been having dreams like this the whole time." God damnit. Was I really that see-through? Matt patted the space on the bed next to him. "Come here."

    I laid down next to Matt under the covers. "I shouldn't be doing this. Won't Shawn be mad?" I whispered urgently to him.
      "Shh, you'll be fine. I'm just doing my job." But I was already falling asleep. He wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled my close to his chest. "Goodnight beautiful." He whispered before kissing my cheek. I fell asleep shortly after.

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I woke up with an arm wrapped around me. It's Shawn again, he probably crawled into bed with me in the middle of the night. I chuckled and looked over to the body that I thought was Shawn. I jumped when I saw it was Matt.
And then I remembered that Shawn was probably in some other country now. For three months. I put my head in my hands and let out silent sobs. This was only day 1 of 93. I don't know how long I can hold up.

Matt soon rolled over in his sleep, freeing me and allowing me to get up. I showered and got dressed. I unplugged my phone from my charger and went over to Nash and Cam's room.

"Knock knock!" I said through the door. Nash opened the door with a tired smile pulling at the corners of his mouth.
"Hey Alli. Come on in." Nash said, closing the door behind me. "What brings you here at," he paused to check his watch. "7:46 am?" He raised both eyebrows.

    "I guess I just need someone to talk to. You guys are the best." I shrugged and sat down on a bed. "He's only been gone for like 12 hours and I'm already hallucinating." I played with my fingers. "Like this morning, I thought it was Shawn who was in bed with me when it was actually Matt. And-" Nash cut me off.
     "Wait, what? You and Shawn in bed? You and Matt in bed?" He nearly shouted.
    "Not like that! I just had a bad dream." I grumbled and looked down, trying to hide my blush.

    "But what about Shawn and you? Did you guys-"
   "Nash!" I shrieked, clamping a hand over his mouth. "Let's just stop right there." I suggested.
    "Does that mean yes?" Nash said with a wicked grin on his face.
    I narrowed my eyes at him. "I'm going to leave if you don't shut up." He held his hands up in surrender. "But what about you and my sister, huh?" I stuck out my tongue and waggled my eyebrows a bit.

    Now it was his turn to blush. "There's nothing going on with Tori and I."
    "BS. I see the way you look at her. And if my suspicions are correct, it may be a mutual feeling."

A/N: hey guys! I'm thinking of making another separate book once this one is done about Tori and Nash, with the characters from this book. Would you guys read that? Also, Dylan O'Brien recently turned 24!! Ilysm Dyl pickle! Please comment, vote and follow! It means so so so so much!
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