Song of the chapter: I'm A Mess by Ed Sheeran
The date went fine. Only a couple awkward parts. Matt made me laugh like he usually does. We went out to dinner at a restaurant. It wasn't super fancy, but not disgusting. I had fun.
But something in the very back of my mind told that this is all wrong. It was supposed to be Shawn there with me, laughing and goofing around. He was supposed to be the one sitting across from me, holding my hand and surrounded by soft lights and romantic music.
Matt and I were walking down a road, swinging our arms back and forth. "You know, this was fun." I lifted my head to look at him. "I'm excited to see what the future holds for us." I told him while I rested my head on his shoulder.
We got back to our hotel and into our room. I climbed into my bed after putting on pajamas. "Night Matthew Espinosa." I said after turning off the lamp on my bedside table.
"Night Allison Conrad." He said while turning his off. I fell asleep once I knew that I was safe with Matt.
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I woke up in someone's warm arms. I smiled at Shawn, he looked down at me. His strong arms were wrapped around my waist. His brown hair was messy and to be honest, it was hot. Those brown eyes revealed everything. Love. He kissed my forehead and curled up next to me.
Memories crashed down onto me like a wave. The picnic, the first Magcon, my birthday when everything felt like it was in slow motion and I turned around to see him singing Imagination. Or when he pulled out his guitar to sing Never Be Alone. When I was covering up his black eye from Matthew. When we sat in the car and at Longhorn Steakhouse that first day.
I woke up screaming, which is something you never want to do. I was thrashing around in my bed, gripping my sheets and yelling. I hadn't noticed the tears leaking out of my eyes. Matt was frantically holding up his hands and trying to calm me down. He held me in his arms as I sobbed and curled up in a ball. It was all a dream. Shawn was consuming my thoughts and I was going nearly crazy. This realization was kind of terrifying. Because despite all the things he had done to me, I was still falling in love with Shawn Mendes.
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I'm getting ready for Shawn's concert right now. I was wearing black jeans, a red and blue flannel with a black shirt under it. I slipped on my combat boots.
I hadn't talked to some of the guys in a while. I went next door to the Jacks' room.
"I'm like hey, what's up, hello?" I said as I walked in.
"Hey, there's the girl who has hidden from humanity." Johnson said, standing up and hugging me.
I hugged him back and inhaled. It felt nice to be in the arms of someone who I'm sure cares for me. Even though he's short compared to the rest of the guys, he is a couple inches taller than me. I'm like 5'8. I exhaled and stepped back, suppressing a smile. "I got lots to tell, Jackie Poo." I said, using the nickname I knew he hated.
"Tell me everything! Spill the deets girl." He said in a funny voice and sitting down next to me on the bed.
"Well, Matt asked me to he his girlfriend and I said yes and we went to dinner but now I'm going to Shawn's last concert of his tour but I don't really want to see him." I said it all really really fast and he just blinked.
"Okay, I know I'm a rapper and I'm used to fast words, but what?" He asked in shock. So I had to explain everything to him slower.
When I was done, his mouth was almost touching the floor. "Damn girl. You got game." I whacked his shoulder. He winced and held it.
"Help me!" I hissed to him.
"Okay, fine. Just don't hit me again. I think you should go to the concert and just make sure he knows you're there. But don't stick around at the end because I know he'll want to talk to you." Johnson advised. I smiled.
"You're brilliant." I stood up and kissed his cheek, rushing out. "Bye Jackie!" I called on my way out. That little it of affection is natural. We're just really close friends, he's like a brother to me. I ran back to my room to find Matt. He was in front of the mirror, styling his hair.
"You ready to go? It's a half hour drive downtown." I said. He jumped a bit at the sound of my voice but smiled.
"Yeah sure." He didn't look thrilled that he was coming with me but personally I didn't care.
I took his hand and kissed his cheek. "Let's go."
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We arrived at the stadium ten minutes before the show started. We got pretty good seats, considering all those crazy fan girls are brutal. I was anxiously tapping my fingers and bouncing my leg when we sat down. I stared at the stage, trying to see if Shawn was somewhere back there. I couldn't see anything from where I was. I was so nervous but I don't even know why.
Matt rested his hand on my thigh and I calmed down almost immediately. I gratefully smiled to him and wrapped my arms around his body.
But I quickly stood up once I heard the screams of all his fans. My breath hitches and I swear my heart stopped when I saw his face. He was smiling big and dressed is casual clothes. This is the boy who I fell head-over-converse for. The boy who broke my heart. I looked over to Matt. Matt was always there for me. But Matt and Shawn aren't the same person. And I can't
have both.
But somehow, some way, Shawn's gaze caught my eye. He saw me. He stopped tuning his guitar and looked at me, shell shocked. I motioned for him to go on. He returned to normal.
A/N: 😏😏😏😏😏😏😏
Okay I lied. It's gonna have to be a lot more than 10 more chapters. More like 25-30 or more. I have big plans for the future. Okay byeeee👩❤️👩💑👨❤️👨
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