Living Life(A Magcon Fanfic)

#Shamila

Song of the chapter: Where Do Broken Hearts Go by One Direction

SHAWN'S POV:

I woke up groggily next to Camila Cabello. My neck was pretty messed up from sleeping in a strange position. We were both still dressed in our stage clothes. I looked over to her and carefully removed her from my shoulder. She looked so peaceful, so innocent.

No stop it Shawn. You don't need another girl right now. Don't be a man whore.

I picked up my phone from my desk with the lights around it. I scrolled through Twitter, my usual morning routine. Not much happening lately, Cameron charming his fans. The usual.

But something came over me. I'm not the one to stalk people, but I needed this. I clicked on Alli's Twitter. Her name was @AlliConOfficial. I had followed her a long time ago, when we first met. I smiled at that moment when Taylor had pushed me forward to say hi to her. She looked so beautiful.

Stop it Shawn. You cheated on her. Not intentionally. But you're the one who screwed everything up. She doesn't even want to see your face.
But nonetheless, I scrolled through the timeline.

Sleep is the best.

I'm having so much fun with the boys on tour. Luv you xx

There were some time gaps through the tweets. One from recently, about 10 hours ago caught my eye. Around the time of the concert.

This is all so wrong, I shouldn't still love you.

My eyes popped open at that. I looked at the comments. No suspicions that it was indirectly tweeted to me. Another one popped up just now. She's active.

I immediately looked at it.

I make the worst mistakes. I can never let go when it's past time to.

I closed my eyes. She still thinks about me. That's good right? But that's tweets aren't very positive. I shook my head as if it was erasing the past thoughts. I looked at the trending tweets.

#AskMatt
#BabyHit1Billion
#Shamila
#Jeyonce
#StilesStillLikesHer

I think the last one was Teen Wolf related. The other one was Jay-Z and Beyoncé. But what the heck is Shamila? I clicked on it and looked at one main tweet.

   Lauren(from Fifth Harmony) had a ken a picture of Camila and I sleeping on each other. It was captioned:
Aww they're tired from their last show! #Shamila @AlliConOfficial @ShawnnMendes

  "Crap." I mutters under my breath. The press is going to be all over this. And especially because they have seen Alli and I together. I wasn't over Alli. I need her back in my arms.

   But I know that one of the boys is going to see the picture. Almost instantly, I received a text from Nash.

N: Bro! You over her already?
S: no way. We just fell asleep.
N: well it's trending. You might wanna clear some stuff up
S: yeah I know
N: k just checking

  Nash was the short kind of texter. I went back to Twitter and went on my account. I tweeted something to clear things up.

   You guys are so funny! Yes, Camila and I are friends but that's it! No romance involved. Sorry if I disappointed some of you guys haha #Shamila

It's better if you just ignore stuff. But I didn't want to have to deal with this in every interview.

I sighed and sat down at my desk. I pulled out a lined piece of paper and a pen. I started writing down the guitar parts to the song. Pretty basic.
Then the words on the backside. I took a shaky deep breath and wrote down everything. I gushed it onto paper that will be soon considered a song. I didn't even care about the tear drops on the paper. Alli had consumed my life and I was letting her in.

I wanna go back,
Forget that it's over
Paint it in black,
When you left me alone
I never knew,
She was sleeping next door with the kid I grew up with,
And I can't go back to her anymore, no

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
No, I can't lift the weight

Put you in the past,
Try to forget you 'cause it's over
And every time you ask
I'll pretend I'm okay
You're inside my head
In the middle of the night
When I don't feel right
I dream I can hold you,
And I can't go back to you anymore, yeah, yeah

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
But I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight

And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you lower your standards and I raise the stakes
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you, you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
But I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
You told me that you needed time but you, you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, say someday you will change,
But I don't wanna wait.

A/N: I put in all the lyrics to the song because a) I'm lazy and b) I wanted you guys to look at them and connect them to the story. Okay byeee👮🏻