Bound By Blood.

ch.93~Take it back.

"You said it. 

You said it and now I can't stop thinking about it. 

Take it back. It complicated everything further. 

Take it back."

Recovered Translated Correspondents between Order Member Alexandra Brooks, to Death Eater Mattheo Riddle, 2004.

Raid site, 2004.

Alexandra.

"STOP!" 

"I love you"

"DON'T YOU DARE!"

"I pick you every time."

"ALEXANDRA!"

"I love you!"

"No, no, no!" 

"Avada Kedavra." 

And then, everything simply just stopped. 

I watched as Draco flew backwards down the stairs, his eyes wide with disbelief, as he stared back at me. 

It was like I could see nothing else but him.

Then, a thud. 

What had I just done. 

Then, nothing. 

Its as if my legs rooted themselves to the spot where I stood, as if time suspended, and all I thought about was Mattheo. 

How I just killed his best friend, how I would have to look at him again, into his big brown eyes and know I just took one of the most important people from him...

Like he did to me...

I wouldn't wish that pain on anyone, yet I had just hand delivered it to him.

Then he was there, his tight grip on my shoulders, turning me towards him, shaking. 

Mattheo Riddle was shaking. 

His eyes laced with disbelief, with hurt, with raw anger. 

"What the fuck did you just do?!" he hissed, in a tone I have never heard from him. 

But I was stuck. 

He quickly looked down, and over the railing, and then I seen a part of him ease... before the anger returned. 

"You were going to kill him?!"He snapped his gaze back to me, his grip on my shoulders hardening.

I couldn't respond. 

I couldn't form a singular thought.

I was stuck, looking into his eyes and only seeing anger, which made me feel worse.  

He shook me gently, desperate for an answer. 

"What the FUCK, Brooks?"

No, no, no. 

I'm not brooks. 

Don't call me that. 

Please. 

Anything but Brooks.

"I did what I had to do," I finally managed to say, though my voice didn't doing like my own. "You don't understand..."