Dear Crush Activity (CLOSED)

Entry #13

Dear Crush,

You used to be a nobody in my life.
Now, without you,
nothing seems alright.
You are a dream that was bound to never come true,
But i dream of you anyway..
To my unreachable dream;

Hindi lahat ng taong magugustuhan mo, magugustuhan ka rin.

Hindi lahat ng taong mamahalin mo, magagawa ka ring mamahalin.

One way love. Uso yan. Pinauso mo yan saken.. :)

Yeah. 'our' story has been nothing but like this. From me, liking you, to being crazily inlove with you but having nothing in return.

Unconditional love? I don"t think so...

Why, so? That's because I keep on hoping.. dreaming.. that maybe one day, this Pakshet of a dream will come true. That it will come flying back to me straight from Jeddah. And then dyaran! hapilly ever after na.

meaning: umaasa akong balang araw mamahalin mo rin ako.

Umaasa pa rin ako kahit na ang nag-iisa at hilaw na confession ko sayo noon, dinedma mo pa. Oo, malupit ka talaga. At ang tawag saken? isang dakilang tanga!

Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ganoon. Andami-daming taon na ang lumipas. In fact, kulang na nga ang sampung mga daliri ko para mabilang kung gaano na katagal ang antigong pag-sinta ko sa iyo. *tss.. naiiyak na naman. Muntanga na naman ako!*

Anong gagawin ko? wala, eh. Masyadong malalim ang balon na kinahulugan ko para magawa ko pang umahon. Kahit na malinaw pa sa sikat ng araw ang katotohanan na kahit mag-belly dancing ako, mag-acrobat o maging si lastik man. You will never notice me. Will never love me in return. Will never give back this notorious feeling that keeps on living deep inside me.

Hindi ko alam kung kailan mawawala. O kung mawawala pa ba? But until then, this stupid heart of mine will be yours.

until then..

sukidesu.. Natzki-kun.