Chasing Forever: Jacob's Story

One Last Night.

 "You can't not go," Chyenne says for the fortieth time today. "It's a once in a lifetime opportunity Jacob, don't throw it out because of me."

 I pace my room, running my hands through my hair and thinking. "I'm not throwing it away because of you," I say. "I don't want to leave you right when we're finally finished being a secret."

 "Jacob." She stands, grabbing my arm and pulling me to a stop, making me look at her. Her hands are on  either side of my face and her eyes are calm. "You need to relax. Your pacing is making me dizzy."

 "I'm sorry," I apologize sheepishly.

She sighs, moving her hand around the back of my head and running her fingers through my hair, trying to relax me. My eyes close for a moment and I breathe in softy, relaxing a little. "You need to breathe, J." She whispers. "You can't stress out about this. It's your decision."

 "But it affects you too.." I say, staring into her eyes to see if there's any reservations against me going. Anything to give me a reason to stay. "I don't want to leave you here alone and missing me."

 She smiles her angel smile and my heart breaks. "Jacob, go." She says. "I'll be right here when you get back and I'll still be as completely in love with you as I am right now."

 I can't help but smile. "Promise?"

 "No," She says. "I swear it."

 I lean down, kissing her softly and she pulls me over to my bed, laying down and pulling me on top of her. "I love you," She whispers, her hands in her hair, when I kiss her neck.

 "I love you too," I breathe against her skin, my teeth grazing her neck and making her arch her back.

 She pushes me back, her hands on my chest, just enough to look into my eyes. "No more worrying about this Jacob." She whispers, her eyes searching mine and her voice rough with need. "Just make love to me one more time before you go."

 I nod, kissing her softly, tasting her lips. "Always."

 For a few moments we kiss, then I lean down, kissing her neck and my hand slides up the side of her shirt, pulling it up slowly. I pull back for a second, pulling it off, and then I kiss her chest softly, her moans making my body feel like its on fire.

 Slowly, I make my way down, kissing her collar bone and chest, making her arch her back.  I kiss he stomach slowly, trailing downwards and she moans, pulling my hair hard.

 "Please," She begs, her voice rough with need. "Please, I want you."

 I pull up, kissing her neck and slowly sliding in, making her moan and her eyes roll back in her head. I close my eyes too, forgetting everything except how she feels. For the next 24 hours, nothing matters except her and I. One more day of bliss before I'm gone for two years.