Beautiful Insanity (A Skyrim/Oblivion Fanfiction) ((ORIGINAL))

A Broken Heart, A Broken Mirror

Warning: There may be sensitive material ahead for some.

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I shuddered with pain. I'd never felt such agony in my life. I'd take being burned to death, electrocuted into silence, frozen alive. I'd never be the same again, not after my dearest love was gone... there was nothing I could do. He was gone from me... my sunshine. 

The skies outside roared and cried along with me, striking the ground with their fists of lightning. A tornado rolled in the distance, sweeping up a building on the far end of the Isles. 

Just let me die... I couldn't stand to be in that room any longer, to smell the magic that still lingered in the air from him. I transported myself to my old house in Crucible and winced as I stepped on glass. A few pieces from the shattered mirror had stood the test of time. The bed was eaten away by moths, and the floorboards riddled with holes from termites. But the glass was untouched, not even covered with dust. Against my better judgement, I lifted up a large shard of the mirror. Inside, I saw the tears streaking down my face.

Look at you, the voice said again. I almost welcomed it. Lost your love? Your family was--

"My family is the reason that I might as well be dead." I gritted my teeth.

But they have taken care of you since birth, the voice argued. My hands tightened on the mirror, drawing blood. 

"But they erred far more by killing Jyggalag than the seventeen years worth of ignoring me in favor of Kary."

You know they loved you, it reasoned. And you loved them.

"The operative word being loved. Should we have crossed paths before today, I certainly would have killed them."

Before today? It was clear I'd puzzled my dark inner voice.

"Yes. Because today... it all ends." There was no Jyggalag to stop me this time. I raised the glass and swung downwards, plunging the sorrows into my stomach.