Make It Last Forever

All That Matters

Nicki POV

I was at Tyla house with her,Christian,August,and Safaree,Tyla was having a mini BBQ with just us but I wasn't really in the mood for it,I probably will later. I'm laying on the couch watching TV with a bear that Ci gave me when we were younger and I start crying,lately I've been doing that a lot. Tyla comes and looks at me confusingly before sitting next to me.

"Nic what happened?" She asks

"This was the bear she gave me when we were 5" I say as I try to wipe my tears

"Nicki,no you not sitting in here actin like one of them people in the movies" She laughs

"That's how I feel" I mumble

"Ciara should be here in a few minutes,talk to her" She says

"If she lets me" I sigh

"She will" She says

"If you need anything,you know where I am" She says as she walks back outside

The next time I see Amir I'm gonna fuck his whole shit up.

I kill some time scrolling through my phone,avoiding anything related to Ci,Safaree walks in and stands next to me.

"Come on you gotta eat something" He says

"Fine" I sigh

He helps me up and before he could walk I stop him.

"Nope,you gotta carry me" I smirk

"Really?" He asks

"Yea" I say

"Alright come on" He says as he turns his back to me

I get on his back and he jogs outside.

"Run boy,run" I say

He goes a little faster and I laugh,I guess I'm in a good mood now.

"What you want?" He asks

"Burger" I say

He fixes my plate and gets me something to drink and I hold on tight to his shoulders so I don't fall. When I look up I spot Ci and we make eye contact,everything seems as if it's going slow and Safaree starts walking back in the house. I suddenly lost my appetite once again,I get off his back and take my plate from him.

"Thanks" I say

"No problem" He says

I notice another plate in his hand and he sits down next to me.

"So I spoke to Ci" He says

"She's pretty confused about what happened,just give her a day or two,she'll come around" He says

"OK" I sigh

A few minutes later Ci walks in and goes in the kitchen.

"You wanna talk to her now" Safaree whispers

I nod my head and he takes his plate and goes back outside,I get up and walk to the kitchen,sighing in the process.

"Can I talk to you real quick?" I ask

"Ok" She sighs

We go in the living room and I sigh before I start.

"I'm sorry" I say

"I know it looks like a whole different story but I did not kiss him,he kissed me,all I wanted to do was get my stuff and leave,I didn't ask him to come up to the store,I don't know if you're gonna believe me yet or not but I'm telling you the truth" I add

"To be honest I don't know what to believe so I just need to distance myself away from you until I get a clear mind" She says slowly

"You really think I would do something like that to you?" I semi-yell

"I didn't say I did or I didn't,I said I don't know so calm the fuck down" She says

"I'm not gonna shut you out that much,since you were my best friend before we got together maybe we can try to just stay best friends,it's up to you" She says as she starts to stand up

"Wait,I didn't mean to yell at you" I say

"I don't even care anymore" She says

Damn I just had to raise my voice.

"Please Ci" I say

"Tell me why we should get back together" She says

"Because I'm telling the truth and I love you" I blurt out

I bite my bottom lip and shake my head,I didn't want her to know yet and the fact that we're not even together right now I doubt she cares.

"I know" She says

I might as well tell her now though.

"Not as my friend,I'm in love with you" I say

Ciara POV

I'm not even gonna lie when Nicki said she was in love with me I felt some type of way. It's not that I don't believe her or I do,it's all just confusing. I would tell her I feel the same way but I don't think it's good timing.

"I don't know if we are gonna get back together anytime soon" I say lowly

I walk back outside and grab my stuff before saying by to everybody,I honestly need to be alone now. A big part of me thinks Nicki is telling the truth but a part of me doesn't know. I get in the car and drive home,I heard the voicemail she sent the other day and I almost started crying. I'll fully talk to her sooner or later but I just really need to clear my mind. When i get home I go in my room and lay down,I decide to take a nap. When I wake up I check my phone for the time,seeing it's 8:25 and I have a text from J'Shawn.

Papi Jr 😈🔥😂💪🏾: I gotta talk to you ASAP

I don't know why he insists on people calling him that.

Me: Ok,when?

Whatever it is it must be serious.

Papi Jr 😈🔥😂💪🏾: Now,I'll be there in a few minutes

Me: Ok

I had a missed call and voicemail from Nicki and I decide to listen to it.

"Hey,I shouldn't have raised my voice at you and I'm sorry I just really miss you and It sucks that this is happening,I really need you,whenever you're not in my presence it feels like I'm missing my blessings,I sleep in the daylight and stay up all night thinking about you,when I'm not with you I don't feel like myself,you make me complete,I'm grateful for your existence and you've always been faithful no matter what,from the bottom of my heart please know that you're all that matters to me and I need you to believe everything I say to you" She says 

This is a lot. 

A/N: DAAAAAAAAAMMN! Honeymoon Ave over? Next update soon!