Make It Last Forever

Right Thru Me

Nicki POV 

I was in my room with Ci and things were getting pretty heated......we were having a argument about something that happened 2 days ago. We went to the club with the rest of the squad and I found some dude all up on her and she's acting like it's not a problem. 

"You're overreacting and you know it" She says 

"No I'm not" I say 

"Why are you so upset?" She asks 

"Cause you're acting like how I feel don't mean shit!" I yell 

At this point I'm fed up. 

"Obviously if you saw everything,you would've seen that I didn't entertain the nigga at all and I paid him dust,so to say I don't care about how you feel is bullshit!" She yells 

"If I didn't care about your fucking feelings I would've never agreed to go out with out you in the first place!" She yells 

"If I didn't care about your feelings I would've never agreed to tell our parents about our relationship!" She adds 

"If I didn't care about your feelings I would've never considered listening to you or J'Shawn about what happened with Amir!" She adds 

"If I didn't give not 1 fuck about your feelings I would've never did a lot of shit YOU wanted to do,but that doesn't matter!" She yells 

She always makes me feel bad after we argue,she does have a point. The fact that I made her feel like I don't appreciate or notice anything she does for me hurts. I sigh and she shakes her head. 

"I'm leaving" She mumbles 

"Wait" I sigh as I grab her arm 

"Now you want me to wait,if you think I don't care about your feelings why you want me to wait" She says 

"I didn't mean it" I say 

"Obviously you did if you said it in the first place" She says 

"I'm sorry" I say 

"Ok" She says as she walks towards the door 

I sigh and rub my hands down my face. I've been messing up everything in our relationship before it can even start. I sit on the bed as tears roll down my face,maybe this was a bad idea. 

I feel a pair of arms pull me up and wrap around my shoulders,I recognize the scent as Ciara's. I cry on her shoulder as she rocks us side to side. 

"I'm sorry" I cry 

"Nicki stop crying" She says while running her fingers through my hair 

"Every time something goes wrong in our relationship it's been my fault and I'm so sorry" I say 

"It's not your fault" She says while rubbing my back 

"I didn't mean anything I said,I was just really upset,you didn't do anything wrong" I say 

"Nicki,It's ok" She says while wiping my tears 

"Don't worry about it,just forget it" She adds before kissing me softly 

She defends my honor and protects my pride no matter what,I always hated good advice but it made me greater. She always told me forget the haters and just get my shit right,she always knows when I'm lying or crying,it's really like she has it down to a science. She makes me laugh and hoarse half the time but it's worth it. Most of the time after we argue she gets her things and start leaving but I find a way to stop her. I'm tired of letting passive aggression control my mind and capture my soul and most of the time she's right when she says I'm overreacting. She sees right thru me and she knows it. 

"I love you" I say breaking the kiss 

"I love you too" 

A/N: Lil rough patch....they made it through it though Next update soon!