My Secret Identity

11.

I woke up cuddled up to Luke. I poked his cheak.

"Wakey wakey eggs and bakey," I giggled. I couldn't get up as he was holding me close.

"Cute," someone said, "But why him not your freaking boyfriend," they asked.

"Luke," I hissed, "Wake up I'm stuck you idiot," he didn't move, "Fock you," I sighed and started tickling him.

"I fucking hate you," Luke growled tickling me back.

"No you don't," I pouted. Luke shook his head and tapped my nose. He slowly sat up and saw Lucy stood there.

"Why are you here," he snarled.

"Because I'm here for my family," she stated.

"Well you aren't wanted here," Luke snapped.

"Where's your sister. Thought she was here too," Lucy said changing the subject.

"She left earlier she was craving ginger so she went to get some gingerbread men," Ashton said.

"They're her favourite," Luke mumbled quietly.

"Where's Calum," I asked. Ashton looked at the floor.

"He didn't come back last night," Ashton admitted quietly. I bit my lip, "Sara don't worry he can look after himself," Ashton added looking at me.

"That's what I'm worried about. He was angry at me it's my fault if anything happens," I whispered.

"Don't you think that," Luke started, "Sara get your laptop for me," Luke changed what he was saying whilst glancing at his phone. I went to my cupboard and found my laptop and brought it back to Luke who turned it on.

"Hey," my laptop buzzed. I scrambled back next to Luke.

"Yo," Luke smirked.

"Hey," I grinned. Ben was sat grinning up at us. I glanced at Lucy who was frouning at us then at Livvi who looked like she was going to kill a bitch.

"Lucy just leave we don't want you here. You upset my best friend," Michael said, "Tell your mum if you want because we don't care. I don't want you hurting anyone else,"

"I have a picture of them two asleep together I will tweet it," She declared before walking off the bus.

"Who was that," Ben asked. Confused.

"Livvi and I's cousin qwe saw her yesterday but she's been shit stiring since she got here," Michael said sitting down with us.

"She tweeted it, she tagged Luke. But not you Sara she doesn't know your twitter," Ashton said.

"Crap someone just tagged me in the comments, from school. Look at that... She's saying I'm cheating on Calum with Luke," I mumbled, "I think it might solve this if I went home," I mumbled.

"But you fit in here," Ashton pouted.

"Yeah well I can't stay when things like this are happening," I sighed trying to locate my phone. I found it and unlocked it.

"Sara don't she can't win. She wants Calum that's why she's doing this," Michael said.

"But I'm not even sure if I want Calum anymore," I whispered. Luke sighed before pulling me onto his lap.

"Look you fought for him. Why did you do that," Michael asked.

"Because I love him," I answered.

"Why don't you want him now," Ashton asked. I knew the answer to that wasn't as simple.

"When ever he touches me I get flashbacks," I answered, "I'm scared. I'm scared James will hurt him just to get me back. I'm scared that he will hurt me. I'm just scared." Ashton looked shocked as if that wasn't the answer he was expecting, "He deserves to be happy. And I won't give him that," I accepted.

"You can't just give up because you're scared," some else said, "Sara we can make it if we try. I know we can. You know why because you're a fighter," Calum said appearing next Ash.

"No I'm not giving up because I'm scared," I said, "You deserve someone who isn't messed up. You deserve someone like Lucy who can love you with out the past fucking things up," I said.

"I don't want just anyone I want you," Calum shouted at me.

"I'm going to go home. You need to clear your head. And so do I," I told him.

"No. No you can't go home," Calum said.

"She can," Luke interjected, "She still wants to and I promised her last night," I pushed past Calum and went to my bunk and started to pull my clothes out my closet and piled them up on my bunk. Luke started to help me put them in my big suitcase. 

"Sara, Jayden is picking you up in an hour," Ashton said. He looked sad but he smiled at me anyway. He made me want to cry. 

"I might come back when Mom does. Maybe," I told him, "Don't you dare cry or I'll cry which'll make Luke cry then he'll never live it down," I grinned. I have Ashton a hug, "You'll see me again before you know it. I promise,"