My Secret Identity

15.

He gently kissed me making me blush. My eyes were shut. And I  finally felt safe. James wasn't on my mind. Matt was. My stomach was full of fireworks. He pulled away breathless. I opened my eyes.

"Wow," he mumbled. He rested his forehead on mine. The world around me was grey, drab, boring but we, we were vibrent. We were colourful. We were alive. His dark  eyes, brown with specs of gold. His curly hair just out of veiw. His eyes looking into my soul finding out my darkest secrets. I was so fucking happy at that moment. It was like. He was. We were. And it felt amazing. We were invincible. Together unstoppable. Forever. Our hands intertwined. Our souls becoming one. I never felt like this before.

"Guys PDA seriously," someone shouted. We jumped appart. He knew I had a boyfriend. But still it happened.

"Sorry. Did anyone get the clothes I asked for," Matt shouted. Emily brought over a bag, "For her," he said. I was handed a bag.

"I have clothes," I said.

"Yeah well you can't do much wearing a dress," he snapped.

"Fine," I growled at him, "Cunt," I added under my breath.

"Not what I mean. I mean that," he started but I walked into the caves. I shined my light at the wall and followed the white path.

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I changed into the cream booty shorts and camo tank. Not what I would've picked. But then again I wasn't expecting to be here. I looked down at myself. I wasn't too sure I looked okay but I never really was. I slipped on the shoes that were in the bag. Surprisingly they fit perfectly. They were like vans but fake and dirt cheap. I put the money in my pocket and went back to the forest. I wanted to see if anyone was there.

"What are you doing here," someone hissed at me.

"Looking," I replied.

"They're still here. Still looking for someone," they replied. Kellin was behind me.

"Well if I don't come back. I'll see you around maybe," I said to him. I slowly walked falward. Luke was sat on the throne head in his hands.

"She's not coming back here," Ashton said. He was lent against the car, "Not anytime soon,"

"Mum is freaking out. The police are looking for her. We're looking for her. I have fucking nightmares Ashton. I. Have. Nightmares," Luke shouted.

"I get she's your sister. But she's been distant for three months," Calum said. He was holding himself together quite well, "If she wanted us she would've said by now. His smile lines seemed faided even from this distance. An other car pulled up.

"What good are you doing moping around," Livvi shouted through the passinger-side window.

"She is my little sister and this isn't easy Olivia. You're just being a bitch," I watched all my friends fighting over my disappearance. It was like I was glue holding them all together.

"I'm so fucking sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry," I whispered tears streaming down my face,"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I love you guys okay please stop fighting. I never asked for any of this," I felt someone next to me.

"Go on then. Go to them," Kellin whispered.

"I can't. I can't. I can't be a shadow any more," I whispered.

"I'll go then," he said. He walked to them all, "Sara wouldn't want you fighting. She left for a reason," I stopped listening and turned away. I couldn't watch him do to strangers to what I should be able to do. They're my family.