My Secret Identity

4. Brothers can be shit

I was sat with Mikey in the kitchen I still hadn't gone back to where everyone else was. The thing was I couldn't tell anyone why I got so upset about it. It was hard enough to tell Mikey. I was going to have to tell Calum sooner or later but the latter seemed better to me right now. Mikey was sat on his phone and it had been hours since Luke said that to me. It hadn't left my head those words. That was scary. In all honesty I was having flashbacks. Vivid flashbacks. The worst in ages. I felt two strong arms around me.

"Babes. Please stop crying. It hurts to see you hurt like this," a masculine voice whispered. I screamed.

"Get off of her yeah. We don't want anything happening on this bus," a different voice said.

"Babes it's me. Me Calum," Cal said.

"Calum she isn't with it right now it's Luke's fault," Mikey said sternly.

"Fuck you Michael. Like you know anything," Luke started.

"Please help," I whispered, "Don't do it. Please, please please," I was fighting with my memories, "Please stop it hurts," I could see every vivid detail. Feel every touch everything.

"She's crazy," Luke mumbled

"Luke seriously," Mikey shouted.

"Its me. Calum. It's only me. I won't hurt you," Calum slowly said gently holding onto my wrists.

"Calum careful," Mikey told him. I could think clearly again. But they were still there the memories. Out the box I locked them away in.

"Help me," I whispered looking at Calum, "Make him stop," I added quieter.

"Make who stop," he asked me. His forehead was rested on mine and he was bent almost double. His eyes were brown and full of care.

"Him. It's all his fault," I murmured,

"Who's him," Calum asked.

"I don't know," I whispered. Mikey had rushed falward and started to check my temperature.

"Mikey I'm worried about her. Luke triggered this. Why," Calum quietly said.

"She needs to tell you," Mikey sighed. Calum was still holding onto my wrists and the table had been moved so Mikey was crouched there.

"I like you a lot Calum Hood," I whispered, "Can I have cuddles," Calum dropped my wrists and pulled me close to him.

"I like you a lot Sara Hemmings," He whispered back.

"Cal call me if anything happens," Mike said before walking back down the bus. Calum had let go of me and was helping me sort myself out because we were going to stop for some lunch soonish. I removed all my make up and started again seeing I had wreaked it previously.

"That's one nasty hickey," Livi laughed coming down the bus. Her aperance was unexpected.

"Hickey. Who has a hickey," Luke called down the bus.

"Sara does," Livi grinned.

"Sara. You're not even legal yet. It's like before all over again," Luke shouted.

"Shut the fuck up Luke you know that wasn't my fault. Any of it," I screached. God he was being a dick.

"You're the one that was pregnant," Luke shouted.

"Luke shut up seriously," Mikey shouted over his shoulder whilst walking down the bus. Calum was looking at me.

"You were going to be a mum," Calum whispered.

"Yes, but I couldn't deal with having a kid. Not the way it happened. If I was in a steady relationship maybe but I can't look after a baby when I am just a child," I replied.

"You killed an unborn child," Calum whispered.

"Calum. I was," I started.

"Livi go down that end right now," Mikey said cutting me off. I looked over at Mikey. I knew he had my best interests at heart. Livi scowled at him before walking down the bus.

"I was rape," I mumbled. Calum look so pissed off.

"I'm going to kill whoever did it," He hissed. Mikey was sat on his phone scrolling through something. My phone buzzed from my pocket. I pulled it out.

@michal5sos
Left for tour three hours ago can't wait to see you all. We've brought Luke's sister with us, @littlehemmings1998

"Thanks Mike. People from school might a start putting two and two together and actually make four seeing as I'm not at school," I laughed. I wasn't too bothered. I wouldn't be going back there.

"Mike can you leave us alone for a minute," Calum asked calmly.

"Sure bro," Mike grinned walking away.

"I like you a lot Sara Hemmings. You're never going to be raped again. I promise you this," Calum whispered.

"I like you a lot too Calum Hood. But never make a promise you can't keep," I sighed. Calum gently kissed me.

"I promise to do my best to keep you safe princess," Calum sighed. He was holding my close.

"I'm sleepy," I mumbled. I lent more and more and more on Calum and fell asleep like you do.