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Now showing private messages between Terroriser and Jon

Terroriser: i need help

Jon: is everything okay? whats wrong?

Terroriser: i dont know what to do about evan anymore

Terroriser: i make sure he takes his meds and i try to help him with the nightmares and his episodes but the other day idk it just got to me and i got mad and idk what to do anymore jon

Terroriser: what do i do

Jon: okay slow down

Jon: what exactly are you asking me

Terroriser: should i just take him somewhere?

Jon: its that bad?

Terroriser: he can barely leave the house, jon

Terroriser: and then when DO leave, he's convinced there's someone in the apartment whenever we come back

Terroriser: he doesnt want to leave my side but these past few days hes barely said anything

Jon: oh

Jon: brian im sorry

Jon: that sounds like a terrible place to be in

Terroriser: i dont want to take him anywhere, but i know he needs more help than i can give him and i just dont know jon

Terroriser: do i keep trying on my own?

Jon: brian i know evan hates hospitals and things of that nature but it sounds like it could really help him

Jon: and you mentioned youve been getting angry?

Terroriser: i dont like yell at him or hit him or anything

Terroriser: but like the other day we got food and brought it back and he kept saying there was someone there even though i knew there wasnt and i kept telling him and then we got in the apartment and he started having an episode and idk i just got angry and dragged him into every room to show him no one was there

Terroriser: and he kept telling me to let him go and that he was scared and wanted to leave and i just kept going and then when it was over he was still crying and i went to comfort him and he flinched at my touch

Terroriser: he FLINCHED jon

Terroriser: hes scared of me

Jon: im sure he knows its not your fault

Terroriser: i know better than to get mad at him for this

Jon: brian do you love him

Terroriser: of course

Jon: well when you see people you love in pain like that, it hurts, and that hurt never really goes away until you force it out

Jon: and sometimes, it comes out as anger

Jon: its not your fault, brian

Terroriser: i heard him talking to himself and he thinks that i think hes crazy but i dont

Terroriser: i dont think hes crazy i love him

Terroriser: i dont want to take him to a hospital but it feels like theres no other choice

Jon: you said hes on meds?

Terroriser: yeah he had his antidepressants that i made sure he took but ever since the thing with craig hes been seeing a therapist who has him on LOW DOSAGE of antipsychotics