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Now showing private messages between Terroriser and ChokingIsMyKink

Terroriser: woah okay, yeah

Terroriser: what's up, Craig?

ChokingIsMyKink: ok this is kinda hard to explain but this has been bothering me for a while now so just don't reply until I explain it fully, okay?

Terroriser: ok take your time babe I'm here

ChokingIsMyKink: so we had that thing where we were all talking and I thought I didn't have to talk to anyone and was about to join you for your nap but then Tyler texted me

ChokingIsMyKink: and he was upset bc he had just talked to John and they made up (kinda) but John said that he couldn't be with him bc Tyler still had feelings for his ex and I could tell Tyler was heartbroken but he was also torn

ChokingIsMyKink: bc him and John still love each other but after John said that to him Tyler realized how unfair it'd be to stay with John

ChokingIsMyKink: long story short John told Tyler to talk to his ex and see how things work out before they keep doing anything

ChokingIsMyKink: and even longer story short... Tyler is still in love with me

ChokingIsMyKink: and he said he didn't want to make things awkward between me and him or even you and me, Brian which I know it won't/wouldn't

ChokingIsMyKink: But, honestly, after he said that I kind of...didn't feel so sure of myself anymore and everything I thought I knew kind of went fuzzy and fuck this is so hard to say I'm literally about to fucking cry

ChokingIsMyKink: Brian...I

ChokingIsMyKink: I think I still like him, too

ChokingIsMyKink: But I still have feelings for you too

Terroriser: wow that's a lot to take in

Terroriser: just give me a sec

ChokingIsMyKink: just say you hate me and block my number honestly I know I'm a horrible person who's been leading you on without a second thought and I'm just gonna abandon you when things were going so fucking well god I'm such a fuckup

Terroriser: no, you're not. Don't ever say that, okay?

Terroriser: you did /not/ lead me on because as you said, you do have genuine feelings for me

Terroriser: But, you also still have feelings for Tyler, which would make sense, your relationship kind of fell apart right when your feelings were reaching the peak of development

Terroriser: you two...kind of left things unsolved

ChokingIsMyKink: so I don't like him? I just think I do?

Terroriser: Craig...sweetie, you know that's not true. You /do/ have feelings for him, maybe even be in love with him, but you're also really scared of losing me

ChokingIsMyKink: I don't want to lose you, Brian, we've had such good times and made so many memories and you make me so so happy

Terroriser: you're never gonna lose me, Craig, and we can still make so many memories and I can keep making you happy

Terroriser: as your friend

ChokingIsMyKink: can't I just reject him and move on?

Terroriser: Craig, you know you'll never be happy if you do that