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Kryoz: hey evan can we talk
RoastMasterV2: im not talking about my breakup with you anymore
Kryoz: no not about that
Kryoz: ive just been thinking a lot about what you said about the tyler stuff and i feel like i should just talk everything out bc i honestly am really fucking confused
RoastMasterV2: oh
RoastMasterV2: yeah ofc dude
RoastMasterV2: whats been going on?
Kryoz: realistically, i dont think tyler wants me back. i think to him ill always be just the one that got away, yk? theres no enough history there left to save
Kryoz: and ik that and im at peace with that but theres still this part of me that is yearning and will be completely gutted if he doesnt come back to me
Kryoz: and it sounds so pathetic but at night i am tossing and turning and wishing that he was next to me because i miss him
Kryoz: but then i start to wonder if i really miss him or if i just miss having someone there
RoastMasterV2: i think those two things can be true at the same time john
RoastMasterV2: but i also think that maybe you're finally allowing yourself to mourn what you have lost
RoastMasterV2: everything was just so hectic and then you had all the shit with me and brian going on and everyone was breaking up and now your body and your mind is finally catching up
RoastMasterV2: even if you feel like theres nothing left to salvage or to go back to, you still feel something
RoastMasterV2: and feelings dont just go away because you want them to
Kryoz: i just feel so stupid because its like im yearning for something that i dont even think i want
Kryoz: i mean i told tyler that i want him back just on a whim and now theres a non zero chance every single day that he could want me too
Kryoz: how do i deal with that?
RoastMasterV2: just because the feeling is mutual doesnt mean that thats whats best for you
RoastMasterV2: you need to do what you feel is right and you might not know what that is off the top of your head but in the moment you'll definitely know okay?
RoastMasterV2: but you cant be agonizing this bad about tyler out of nowhere
RoastMasterV2: whats REALLY going on here
Kryoz: okay fine
Kryoz: i may have done something stupid and ever since ive been in full blown crisis/panic attack mode and im trying to distract myself before i do something else thats even more stupid
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