terrified. ✿ calum hood au

[5] fixing

calum-

"fùck," i swore, running a hand through my hair. i stared at my door, the last place i had seen kaeleigh before she had run out on me.

i said i had a date because, while i had planned our day, i had not come up with an excuse for why i had to leave. so i just blurted it out, and willow bryan was the first girl to come to my mind.

i got angry and ran, because i had hoped that i would be able to spend the whole day with my best friend, not just a couple of hours.

but she went and got her fùcking lip pierced.

which looked hot.

i debated on whether or not i should go after her. if i did, i could probably make her less angry. but if i gave her space, i would be sure that she had cooled off.

fuck it.

i threw the covers off me, standing and quickly putting shoes on. i went down stairs, and out the front door, locking it behind me. looking at the street, which was free of cars, i ran across the road. kaeleigh's door was unlocked, so i knocked three times before letting myself in.

"hello calum," kaeleigh's mom greeted me from the kitchen, a polite smile on her face.

"hi, emily." i waved, "is kae upstairs?"

mrs. hall nodded, "just go on up."

i thanked her, then rushed up the stairs. i could hear music coming from kaeleigh's bedroom at the end of the hall, and i shook my head fondly.

"hi," i said quietly, as i pushed her door open and shut it after me. kaeleigh looked up at me, but didn't say anything. "i wanna talk."

i dodged the pillow that was aimed for my head, sighing. "okay, i definitely deserved that." she raised an eyebrow. "i'm sorry."

kaeleigh scoffed, sitting up straighter on her bed. "of course."

"i am," i insisted, "i didn't think of what i was going to say when i left. a date was the first thing i had in mind. i should have just told you it was a surprise. and i shouldn't have got mad at you for going out with the boys. i know that i left, and that you were able to do whatever you wanted. i'm sorry i said all those things, and - kaeleigh, i'm sorry! i just don't want you to be mad at me."

kaeleigh stared at me for a moment before she patted the space next to her. i sat, cautious of making any wrong moves. she reached up with a hand, and flicked my forehead.

i let out a shriek, holding my hand on my head. "what the hèll was that for!?"

"for being an idiot." she stated. "now come here and cuddle me."

i couldn't suppress the grin that made its way onto my face as we lay down, and i pulled her close to me. she mumbled something into my chest, and i laughed. "what?"

"i said," she turned her head so that her hear rested on my chest instead. "that we could still have an amazing day."

"i'd rather just stay in and talk for the rest of the day."

"okay."

"so what made you want to get a lip piercing?" i asked curiously, "i thought you said you didn't want any other than your ears."

"i've been debating it for a while," kaeleigh shrugged, "and i was talking to my mum about it the other day, and she said that she didn't care because i was old enough to make the choice. luke and michael got one too."

"luke got a piercing?" i exclaimed, shocked, "liz is gonna kill him."

"i know," kae laughed, "he got one on his lip, while michael got his eyebrow pierced."

"oh my gosh," i covered my mouth with my hand. "he's gonna accidentally rip it out or something, watch."

"he screamed when he got it."

i laughed even harder, trying to imagine michael shooting out of the chair with a shriek. "damn it, i wish i was there."

"it was more fun without you." kaeleigh teased. "you wouldn't have let us get ice cream."

"you guys got ice cream too!?"

"of course," she rolled her eyes, "you can't go to the mall and not get ice cream."

"i'm so jealous," i mock whined, "now we're gonna have to go and recreate the whole day again."

"i'm not getting another piercing," kae protested. "that shit hurt."

"well i wanna get another tattoo," i shrugged, "so you can go with me."

"alright." kaeleigh agreed, letting a yawn slip from her lips. "we can do that."

"are you tired?"

"no," she answered, but yawned again. "it's only five o'clock."

"yeah, but you're tired." i insisted, "go to sleep, baby, i'll still be here when you wake up."

and i guess that, even though she asked me to, i shouldn't call her baby. because she won't ever be my baby, not in the sense that i want her to be. today showed that i could hurt her by just saying a few words, and i could never do that again. the last thing i want to be is the person who hurts her.

"okay." she said quietly, and i could tell she was already drifting off. "love you, cal. night."

"i love you too, baby, have a good sleep."

calling her baby was the closest thing i would get to being hers.

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I'M SORRY ITS BEEN FOREVER

i apologize.

but here? it's rlly short i know i know. maybe i'll update tomorrow too.

but it's harder with school. :(

i love you all so much!!!

-k