my life lol

ant likes me???? I THOUGHT WE HAD BEEF WHAT

so ant, hes a pretty short guy, im 5'2-5'3 and hes my height. he pretty outgoing and friendly to all the girls. hes not strong or atheletic looking and is kinda perminatly friendzoned by 70% of the girls. kinda feel bad for him about that. he used to like my friend a while ago but she never liked him back and he stopped liking her. 

so i thought we had beef cus he talks to every single girl in the grade in such a friendly energetic way but he didnt seem to talk to me like that. in fact he kinda looked scared of me...lol like i was like i should try to talk to him for once and joined in on a convo with him and my friends and responded to sm he said and he looked TERRIFIED T0T LMAO the fear in his eyes was so uncalled for help

i figured he was another case of ew look she's the alt girl in our private classical school shes probably weird of he was just kinda frightened cus ig i have rbf??? i actually dont know like ik i look moody but i dont act threatening in the slightest. i m either yapping about sm i watched last night to my friends, being sarcastic and getting absolutally targeted by guys in my grade but its fine cus i take it pretty well, or making unfunny jokes in class and laugh at myself like what ( that sounded pathetic lol dw i only say them outloud if their actly decent and im proud to say they work)  

im not cool or popular lol let alone scary but this kid always seemed frightened. 

tho one day we played basketball together afterschool with some other friends in a game of queen of the court so we teamed up cus we're both kinda trash lol. (hehe i was at least better than him tho) we talked for bit and he seemed slitghly less scared but still i felt like i was cornering him as i talked to him lol lowkey wondering if i should apologize for accidentally threatening him? or cornering him? idk hes just always on edge

turns out its cus he likes me....? did not see that coming 

i kinnda started laughint in class and had to cover my mouth to shut up when my friend told me in class. also turns out he has liked me since Valentinesday???? or at least thats when he texted my friend telling her he did. she didnt tell me for so long cus he told her in confidence and the topic was never brought up which i understood

hes nice, ive never cared about height that much and hes scrawny but again ive never cared about that, but do i like him? ehhhhhhhhhh not really

also going on a highschool first date sounds not fun at all. I'll pass, i like being single and i dont rly get lonely anymore since i pray to God a lot and i have my bestfriends who i love and would die for anyday.  

speaking of which im about to get picked up for a grade party by them so thats it for my updates so far but i do have a huge one about dog tho thats a lot of drama that i don't wanna relive right now.  so byeeeeee tysm for reading