The Three-Way Love!(#Wattys2015, #YourStoryIndia)

Chapter 26: Raging Emotions

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I felt so angry that I just left her there around him! I felt so angry the moment I saw them together. He wasn't letting her go and it made me loose control. God knows why she had such an effect on me!

If It was any other girl I wouldn't care to even listen to her, just drag her out of there and fuck her brains out to claim her and make her realize that she was mine. I had always used sex as a mechanism to keep aside all emotions out of my life.

I wish I could tell her or make her understand how much I felt for her but it never came out. It was all so new for me. I never felt anything like that with any girl before. I felt like a dumb fuck around her. I didn't want to force her but I wanted her bad!

Rohan- why the fuck did he have to fall for the same girl I started feeling for? That was even more annoying than anything.

It was like a payback for something I never did. His bloody bitchy girlfriend came to me. Although before I knew she was his girlfriend I did make a move on her. That was totally unintentional!

I punched him because he had her in tears just because she kissed Jai. That was pretty lame! I felt jealous when she told me she kissed him but then I tried to understand why she did it and then I didn't react much to it.

And looking at them standing together, made me feel full of rage, suffocation, possessiveness and selfishness. Blood was boiling through each and every vein of my body and that's why I punched him.

I felt more because she stood there patiently listening to him. Was he better than me for her? Did she feel for him? If she did, then why did she kiss me back?

I was in no state to face her after that, so I did what I did best-leave the girl. I was pretty used to running away from girls and I did it again flawlessly without thinking about her feelings.

The party was totally sidelined for me. I drove back home alone and the first place I went was to the bar cabinet and took out a bottle of bourbon. Earlier, whenever I felt something, I would just fuck it off with some girl and feel back normal, but now I didn't want to do anything like that.

I gulped down half of the bourbon bottle in one gulp to calm it off, the tons of emotions surfing through my heart. The bourbon burned down my throat but it felt nothing compared to what was just happening.

After drinking, I took out of phone just to hear her voice. I knew her parents were back so she could come along with them. I wanted to see her but I resisted because I knew it wouldn't turn out well, I was already too messed up with emotions.

She picked up and she said in her beautiful voice "Hello."

I didn't let her say anything else and told her straightaway "We need to talk! I don't want to create any more fucking drama now, so I'll see you tomorrow."

I knew I didn't want to tell her anything stupid at the moment since the bourbon was already playing with my senses, that's I kept it short. I didn't her even say bye, her voice itself had an effect on me.

I sat on the bar stool in the kitchen thinking about her, the lights were dim. I didn't even feel to have light around. Darkness concealed all the flaws, I thought.

I sat there thinking about for god knows how long. I started feeling for her since the day we met but never took it seriously until I saw her in that beautiful dress at the party, that I had given her.

It took me some time to think about it and I finally told her about it, but she didn't say much. i guess she found it unexpected coming from a playboy like me. She knew how I was, what kind of a life I had and I guess that's why she felt hesitant.

My bloody lifestyle was one of the cause she was hesitant and never said much. I remember the time she saw those handcuffs in the car. I saw the shocked reaction on her face. Even I didn't know they were there or whom I had used them on.

My work had never affected me in such a way as much as she did. I wasn't concentrating on my work lately thinking about her and I needed to avoid that under any circumstances.

I wish I could undo what all shit I had done, maybe that would make her feel something for me. There was so much difference between us, there was an age gap and even our thinking and maturity. All these things weren't helping with the situation.

She hadn't answered me yet, so I couldn't tell her anything. But after what happened today, I needed to ask her for an answer.

After gulping down most of the entire bottle, I loosened my tie and headed towards my room. There was no one there. I went straight into my room and lay back on my bed thinking how would I talk to her.

The next morning I woke up with a bad head ache. Drinking was a bad idea, I thought but it helped to sleep.

I straightened up myself, took a nice bath and headed down for breakfast hoping she was there. And she was there but our parents also sat along minus Rohan.

She was chilled out but she froze the moment she saw me and stiffened. I couldn't talk to her until we were alone.

Dad and uncle started speaking about some stupid property deal and got me involved in the conversation. She didn't even at me properly. After our dads and mums headed their way out for their club session, I tried talking to her.

She stood up but before she could leave, I spoke up "Look, I am sorry for last night I got angry but it was Rohan's fault."

She shifted back on her seat opposite to mine and said in a low voice "It wasn't his fault. It was Natasha's fault. She instigated you to get a reaction out of you so that Rohan wouldn't come around me again." What was I supposed to say to that?

I couldn't hold on any longer so I asked her straightaway clenching my fists tightly "Tina...can you please tell me what you feel? I saw him talking to you yesterday and it made me feel more mad at him and I just hit him."

She looked anywhere but at me and said in a serious voice "I don't know, Raj. That's the problem! I don't know what I feel. Please give me some space. Both of you are always around me which gives me no time to even think."

She shifted on her seat crossing her legs and said in a low voice "I do like you, in fact I am attracted toy you, but not emotionally. And last night, I felt shocked seeing such a violent reaction out of you. I don't know what to think."

I told her in a pleading tone "It came out bad last night ...but I am really sorry,Tina."

She got up gathering herself up, walking towards the edge of the table as I followed her and said "It think I'll be able to think about it when I leave from here and that's soon. I won't leave you hanging but give me some time." She gave me a peck on the cheek and left.