Rebuilt

Weightlessness

Back to Lilia's Pov

After what felt like an eternity we pulled up outside my house.

"Thanks" I muttered to Evan as I clambered put of the car faster than I thought possible. Slamming the door behind me I literally ran up my driveway and into my house, not looking back. I heard the car backing put of the driveway and soon it was gone.

"Lilia, sweetie. Did you have a nice time with your friend?" My mum asked winking at me.

"He was nice letting me sleep on the sofa instead of forcing me to walk back in the dark." I lied.

"Oh" mum replied clearly disappointed that I didn't have any juicy details to tell her. I mean, I wouldn't of told her anyways so I don't even know why she asks. And by the way that she looks sad I think I'm a pretty good actress.

"So.... Anyways I need to get ready for school now"

"Sure honey." We literally have nothing to talk about.

Reaching my room I decided I was going to go for a shower cause I felt icky and generally like you feel in the morning.

God, this morning. The morning where Evan kissed me and ... Stop thinking about it! You don't like him!

I scold myself mentally.

Sighing I grabbed my towel and went for a shower.

15minutes later I emerged from the shower gasping for breath. Memories threatening to drag me under once again.

I looked down at my body and at the scars all over myself. Holding the sink for support and breathing heavily I fought to resurface, parting the sea of memories.

I pictured myself walking out of a sea with all my memories in, just like Dr. Perkins, my therapist, said to, I imagined the water parting and me walking out onto a new white sand beach. I pictured myself building a sand castle and facing away from the sea, from the memories which were now behind me. That were always going to be behind me.

The feeling of weightlessness decreased slightly and I was able to control the spinning.

Breathing heavily I forced my eyes open and pushed the blurriness away.

I sighed, me being back to normal, or as normal as I can be, I removed my white knuckled hands from the sink and wrapped the towel around my gooosebump covered body.

Entering my bedroom I glanced at the clock.

Crap!

I have 15minutes till I have to catch the bus. Sh*t!

Rushing about I start to get ready.

12minutes later I grabbed my school bag off the floor and ran out of the house and down the drive, so fast that it would put Bolt to shame!

Too fast, even, to notice eyes staring at me out mum's rose bush.

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School went as school does.

Bus journey.

Bullying.

Lesson.

Stares.

Lesson.

Laughing.

Bus journey.

Luckily me and Evan kinda just made up. We haven't talked about it or anything but I think we just both mutually agreed that it was too risky and I think he respected that I wasn't ready.

That I still had a lot to get over.

I don't know how but he just knows. He just gets it.

Lee and Charlie were their general asshole selves and spent the whole day making fun of me, triping me over and that general rubbish.

And here I am, sitting at home like a complete idiot, staring at the white walls of my shell-of-a-room.

My school clothes still hanging on my body and my bag just slipped off my shoulder. I was out of breath from running home.

Again... Bad bus journey. I winced as I remembered the looks Charlie shot at me on the bus less than 15 minutes ago. Then the smirk I saw out of the corner of my eye as I ducked my head down.

"Hey lonely b*tch!" He had yelled down the bus, "I'm sure you had an eventful evening last night."

All the minions around him had sniggered, obviously thinking he was talking about my lack of um... action in the bedroom.

But I knew he was talking about last night when he left me in a bush tied up and gagged because Evan and his big mouth, not to sound mean but I can't trust or rely on anyone anymore; I know people are cruel and I have no idea what Evan is capable of. Its my problem anyways. It's my sh*t to deal with.

I had turned bright red as my eyes had bore a hole into the floor.

I had felt like a leaf of a tree in Autumn, discarded and useless.

That's me, it's who I am .... Useless.

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Hiya guys!!

Sorry I took so long to update and sorry it's a short chapter but it's updated so I suppose that's good right?!

I had writers block all this week plus I was on holiday with my family so I was spending time relaxing for a change!

Pic at the top is Lee!

Until I update again keeeeeepp.....

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