Rebuilt

Goodbyes and Promises

My brain swirled with a mess of scrambled thoughts as the countryside blurred past me. An unidentifiable mix of brown, green and blue.

My eyes bore into the hedges, tall, streaking snakes stretching to safeguard the road, I watched until I felt dizzy, my eyes spinning in the back of my head, and then looked down. After a minute of composure I was staring out again. I repeated this until my brain is swollen and incomprehensive. If I could draw it, I would scratch scribbles into the paper. I don't know what I was trying to accomplish by staring out the window, or what I was trying to see. Something recognisable maybe. Something to distract me from the silenced rivers pouring down my cheeks and the nervous glances that Thea gave me every other minute.

She was shaking, her hands barely able to grip onto the seat as she tried to hold it together, for me I assume.

Now I'm selfish. Great. Add that to the list of things I need to fix in my sorry excuse for a life.

She had painfully scraped her strawberry blonde hair back into a sharp ponytail, no hairs out of line, her perfectly rounded lips were perched as if she was going to say something but decided against it.

Judging by the way that she has been like that for however long we have been driving in this damn vehicle I'm guessing that she is either thinking or just taking a breather, I mean it's a lot of information to process at once. How Evan's being so calm about this I have no idea.

He is in the front of the car, unlike me and Thee, who didn't want the awkward conversation. He's also driving, which makes sense. I have no idea where but I do know that we got in this car around half past two (I think) and it now says six o'clock.

Well, ok I lie, 6:04pm if I'm being precise. No-one has uttered a word, not even a mere whisper for that entire time, Evan staring straight ahead, Thea and I glaring out opposite windows. I sigh, this could end badly, might as well suck it up while I have the chance.

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As the clock struck the impressive time of 8:47 we arrived finally, well I say arrived, we came to a stop at a large black metal gate.

I couldn't see anything behind the gates as the sun was setting leaving the sky a sad grey colour. My legs ached from the constant confinement of the afternoon.

Evan unbuckled his seat belt and climbed out of the car, walking to a stone pillar connected to a wall to which the gate was attached. He slid one stone out of the wall and pressed his thumb to a screen underneath. After a few moments of scanning, the screen flashed white and the gate opened. Evan hopped back into the car, to shocked expressions from Thea and I.

"H-how did you do that?" Thea exclaimed, voicing my thoughts.

Evan chuckled but didn't answer and pretty soon we were back into comfortable silence. Eventually I turned away from Evan and focused on the drive that we were accelerating up.

Well I assume it's a drive...

It seemed like that, with emerald fields spanning off into the distance filled with usual livestock. Sheep mostly. Innocent animals like angels with their puffy white wool. Something natural. Something to remind me that life still goes on; there is normality if you search for it. It was only then that I heard Evan's mumblings