The Deadliest Desires

Chapter One

Chapter One - Lilia  

One person can only cause so much pain before he's replaced by happiness...

“You cheated on me!” I screamed at Caleb as he stood there watching me. Pain starts to seep into my very essence as reality begins to pound on my head making me dizzy. What scrares me is that e isn't even trying to deny any of it. Instead he's just standing there, brooding as I scream at him. I look up at him, tears filling up in my eyes as I try to push them back and all I could do is whisper, “You cheated on me... How could you cheat on me? Six months... Six months... WAISTED!”

“Lilia!” Caleb rasped. He tried to grab for my hand but I pushed him away. My hands are shaking but I still managed to impact him somewhat. His dark brown eyes just stared at me with anger and pain. I didn't think an ounce of that anger and pain is for hurting me. But if I had to guess... I'm pretty sure it's from getting caught. Again he tried to grab for my arm and I back up, “Lilia! I'm so sorry. It... It was a one time thing. I swear-”

I shakily laughed. I looked at him and started to laugh at him while he stared at me in confusion. “You know it's funny that you say that. I have NO trust in you whatsoever. It's funny that you think I'll take your word for it. It's funny how you think a couple of WORDS will fix anything,” I said flatly. Again pain flashed in his eyes. My voice is calm as I replay the whole situation in my head. 

“Lilia... I promise you-  What can I do to get you back? What can I DO to make this up to you?” asked Caleb. His light brown hair fell into his eyes as he stared at me. His dead brown eyes just stare at me. Caleb's eyes now hold nothing but flat anger. His body starts to shake a little with anger as he takes a step towards me. They scare me. How can those eyes hold so much anger when they have been exposed to so much light?

Now anger starts to pulse through me as I realize out that he's angry at me for not getting back together with him. Me not understanding him and his needs pisses him off. My eyes suddenly turn cold as I choke back sobs, “What can you do? Leave me alone...” The sobs stopped me from saying anything else as I looked at him. I love him but he doesn't deserve any more of my time, I thought. This man, that I thought could protect me from anything, turns out to be the one thing that can really hurt me. I fix my long hair and start to fidget with it. Finally I look up at him, “Words mean nothing to me... I-I saw you! I was going to give you an anniversary present that I spend weeks putting together... Six fucking months! Wasted! And for what? A broken heart!” I screamed at him. I stepped up close to him and pushed him hard. Caleb didn't really move but it still gave me satisfaction. Again my hand starts to shake.

Quickly, I turn around and start to run for my door to my old Victorian house, covered in vines and flowers. I felt Caleb grab my shoulder but I tore it away from me. Caleb doesn't have a right to touch me anymore. I ran up the seven steps to the porch and into the house. I closed the door behind me as I flew in. Quickly I turned the dead bolt lock as Caleb reached the door. He started jiggling the door knob and when he figured out that the door was locked, he starts pounding on the door. All I see is a figure standing outside my door through the dark stained glass window as continues pounding on the wooden part of the door. I fear he'll crack the three hundred year old stained glass.

“LILIA!” he screams. Again he starts pounding on the door as I watch in the safety of my home. 

Slowly I sink down to the floor and curl up into a ball. Piercing sadness starts to throb through me making me sick to my stomach. Nausea rolls inside of me like a powerful wave and a headache starts up. I can no longer hold back the sobs that have been trying to escape me. The sobs sound horrid in my quiet home. I let tears roll down my cheeks and stain my face with saltiness. Sobs rack my body as reality pushes up against me making it insanely hard to breath. Reality is a hard truth. Memories swirl around my head making all this reality unbearable. I watch as Caleb's silhouette finally disspears and his cursing stops. Slowly I get up and a small smile forms on my lips... I'm free.