Choices Between Us

Chapter 3~

Harry's Pov

"What are you doing?" Sara asked coming into our bedroom with Greyson in her arms.

I folded my thsirt but didn't stop what I was doing.  I didn't want to have this conversation now, I just needed to get New York, get to my Raya.  "I am packing."

"I can see that................where are you going?"

I sighed and sat down on the bed, I ran my hand over my face.  I knew I had to tell her, it was only a matter of time before she found out.  I looked up at her and patted the bed beside me, motioning for her to come sit next to me.  I watcher her place our son in his play pin next to the bed.  His little eyes were heavy, he would be asleep in no time.  You couldn't ask for a better baby, he would fall asleep on his own, didn't have to rock or lie down with him.  He was the light of my life.

I felt the bed dip from her sitting beside me.  I took a deep breath and looked at her.  I didn't know where to start, how do you tell your wife about another woman who was pregnant with your child.  

"What is it Harry?  What is wrong?" she asked as she placed her hand on my thigh.

"I am going to New York for a few days......or awhile.  I don't know how long I will be actually." I didn't look up at her, I just watched her fingers rub against the top part of my hand.  

"Is it for work?  I didn't know you had plans to go to New York?  Is the other guys going?"

"No it is just me."  I look up at her eyes, her beautiful chocolate brown eyes.  "I am going to see Raya.  She is sick in hospital and she needs me."

"What the fuck Harry!  You are seriously going to go help her again.  What did she do this time." Sarah spat at me anger laced in her voice.  "You are not going." she said as she stood up and tore over to my suit case and started unpacking everything I had put in there.

"Sarah.....come on love, stop it." I said getting to go to her and stopped what she was doing.  "I  have to go, she is sick but it isn't what you think.  She didn't relapse with the drugs.....she is pregnant." I said softly and quickly.

"Pregnant? What is it to you, to go take care of her and her mistake that is a result of her fucking around when she was druggie......no wait she will always be a druggie, she is trash Harry."

"Hey." I said trying not to let my anger show through, her words stung me right to my core.  It bothered me anyone would talk about Raya that way.  She was an amazing woman who made the wrong choices in life.  "The baby is not a mistake."

Sarah rolled her eyes, I watched her clench her fist.  "How can it not be.  She is a drug addict, it probably happened when she was high.  I bet she doesn't even know who the father is."

I took a deep breath.  "The baby is mine."

"What did you say?" 

She looked at me tears in her eyes.  "How?  When?  Fuck Harry.  How far a long is she?"

All the questions came at me, she was pissed and hurt.  I didn't blame her.

"Well you know how it happened.......it was our last night at the villa, that is when she conceived."

"Right after you asked me to marry you?" 

I looked down at my feet.

"Why the fuck would you do that!  You just proposed to me and you went and fucked her.  I don't understand you."

"Keep your voice down, you are going to wake the baby." I tell her looking over at my boy stating to stir in the play pin.

She wipes the tears that are freely fallen down her face.  "Well you are my husband now, you can't be leaving your family to be with her.   I won't have you leaving us."