Choices Between Us

Chapter 17

"I can't believe you are going to his mothers house for the next week.  I don't even know what you are thinking Raya." Naill says through anger and frustration.

I sigh as I pack up my things.  "Lena wants me to be there.   I don't see the big deal Niall."

"The big deal is that you are going to be spending time with him......and we all know how you feel about him.   I thought we were going to give this a try....to make it work for you and I.  I should have been the one to have your heart to begin with.  I told him how I felt about you before he even began to make moves on you."

"What?" I say dropping my clothes into the suit case.

"I told him I liked you......that I wanted to date you.  Things would have been different Raya....we would probably be married now with our own children."

I shake my head.  "I wouldn't of had Lena......we would never have gotten married."

"What the fuck is that suppose to mean?" He snaps and looks at me with those piercing blue eyes.  "Where do you see us going as a couple?  Now?"

"Please Niall don't do this." I tell him turning to look at him.  "You know I care about you."

"Fuck this." He says as he turns to leave the room.  I have hurt him, he is upset and very angry.

I follow him out into the living room.  "Niall please stop......let's talk this through."

"There is nothing to talk about......it has always been him.....it will always be him."

"Niall." I go up behind him and touch his arm, he pulls away from me quickly.  I feel tears start to brim in the corner of my eyes.  "Please don't do this."

"Do you love him?"

I look Niall in the eyes.  I see hurt anger there.  "I will always love him......his is Lena's father." I say and watch the moisture start to grow in the corner of his eyes.  "I will never be with him again though Niall.  I want to build a life with you."

Niall sighs and shakes his head.  "I don't believe that."

"Why?"

"Because I think if we were both standing here side by side and asked you to choose between us.  You would choose him." Niall said before turning away from me again.  "All I have ever done is love you.....I have never hurt you.  I have stood by your side through everything.  When he was busy with other women I was always there for you."

"I know Niall."

"You were never his first choice." He says before he walks towards the door and opens it.

"Where are you going?" I ask as I began to cry.  I know he is walking out on me, I know that he has had enough of my bullshit. 

"This was a mistake." He says before he walks out and slams the door.   The noise it makes, makes me jump as it comes to a slamming close.  I stand there for a few moments with tears slipping down my face.  I didn't want to lose Niall, but was he right?  Would I always chose Harry. 

I wiped my tears away, I had to get ready.  Harry and Lena would be here soon and I needed to look presentable and be ready to leave.   I finish packing and wash my face.  I re apply some make up and make myself look presentable.  Am just about done and I hear the door open and close.  I walk out and Niall is back.

"Hi." I say to him, he looks up at me.  His eyes are red and puffy.

"Hey."

"I am sorry Niall." I tell him as he walks towards me.