Choices Between Us

Chapter 18.

I sit on Harry's bed with a small velvet black box in my hand,  I was curious when I seen it in his bedside table when I had come looking for Lena's Ipod.  Harry said it was in the bedside table, I discovered it was on the beside table after I had opened the drawer and found this little box.  I held it in my hand contemplating if I should just put it back or open it.

I couldn't help it,  I open the case it was held in and gasp when I see what was inside.  The most beautiful ring that I had ever seen.  Square cut diamond, set up high from the white gold band that was encased with small diamonds.  I take the ring out of the box and slide it onto my ring finger, it fits perfect.  It is the perfect ring for my hand.

"I bought that for you." His voice makes me jump and automatically take the ring off and place it back in the case.  "I never could take it back."

I look over at him, he is leaning against the door frame.   His hair up in a high messy bun, his black button up shirt, open at the top to revel his chest and the tattoos that lie there.  His emerald green eyes staring directly into my soul.   I close the case and set it back in the drawer where it was found.

"I am sorry.......I shouldn't have invaded your privacy."  I say standing up quickly and brushing my sweaty hands on my jeans.   I look on top of the table and see Lena Ipod sitting there.  I pick it up quickly.

"It is okay Raya."

"Why did you keep it?" I ask before my brain had a chance to think, the words just spilled out of my mouth.

He doesn't say anything, he just crosses his arms across his chest and looks at me.  When I realize he wasn't going to answer me, I rush past him but I feel his hand gently grasp my upper arm stopping me from going further.

"It is meant for you." His husky voice rang in my ear.   "I always thought that there would be a day when we would be in a place or situation where I could give it to you again.  Ask you again to be my wife.  The night in the villa that Lena was conceived,  I had asked you to be my wife when we were there, then Sara showed up and everything changed."

I felt chills on my spine with his every word.  Lena was conceived in that Villa six years ago, when I was healing from my addictions.   He had asked me to be his wife,  in a causal way.

"You didn't have the ring then?"

"I did............I just didn't have it with me.  I purchased that ring before we parted ways at your birthday party.  I always knew you were the one for me."

I try to look away from his eyes as he spoke to me, I couldn't I was always taken in by him.  There was an electric pull between us......always had been.   I had to step back.....I couldn't go down that road with him.  There were so many other involved now; Lena, Greyson, Sara  and Niall. 

"I still love you."  His voice rings in my ears, sending sheer panic over my entire body.

"Don't say that." I say looking at him, tears are brimming in the corners of my eyes.  "You don't get to tell me that now.......all these years later.   You need to stop saying things you don't mean.   I was never your first choice.......NEVER."  I struggle to get out of his grip.  "Lena is waiting for me."  I feel him release me and I quickly walk down the hall towards the spare room Lena and I was staying in.   I had to recompose myself so she wouldn't know I as upset.

I hear Lena's little voice talking to someone.  I open up the door and she is sitting in the middle of the bed with my phone pressed to her ear.

"Uncle Niall I miss you so much.   When we get back we need to spend some time together.  Oh i miss you so."