Choices Between Us

Chapter 8

29 Weeks.

"Are you sure you are okay with you dad and I not being there right now sweetie?"

"Mom it is fine, you and dad enjoy Christmas where it is warm and sunny.  I am fine, the baby is fine.  Naill , Kyle are both here.  Trina has been stopping in to visit when she isn't working that is." I speak softly into the phone as I don't want to awake the sleeping Irish lad.  The nurses had felt bad for him and got him a cot so he could stay in my room.  I didn't know why he insisted on staying all night with me but I didn't mind really.  I liked having the company. 

 One nurse did actually think Niall was the father of the baby, which would probably have been easier if it had worked out the at way.  Niall was more supportive and caring that Harry was.  Yes of course he said he loved me, was very affectionate when he was here but he went back to his wife and son.  I knew I couldn't be upset with that but it hurt regardless to know that I had lost him even though he said he was still here for us.

"You call us if anything happens." 

"I will mom, go have fun with dad." I smile hoping she can hear my smile through the phone.  "I love you." 

I hit end on the phone and set it down on the bed beside me.  I tried to turn over on my side, but a sudden sharp pain stopped my movement.  "Shit." I cursed and took a deep breath, it only lasted a few seconds before it subsided.  I rolled back over onto my back, still taking deeping breaths.  I was cold and clammy, I felt like I was going to be sick.  I tried to sit up but the same fierce pain ripped through me.

"Oh god." I groaned trying to reach for my call bell.  "Niall" I said through the pain,

"Mmmm what." He mumbled.

"I can't reach my call bell." I told him softly.  "I need the nurse, it fell on the floor."

He sat up on the little bed and wiped his hands over his face trying to wake up.  He looked up at me and his eyes got serious in a matter of seconds.

"Raya......what is wrong?"

"I am in a little pain and need to pee.  I feel like I might be sick to my stomach though." I tell him trying to hide the discomfort in my voice.

"Yer white as a ghost, and sweating I can see the moisture on your skin."  He reached down and pressed the button on the call bell.

"Can you help me up?" I ask him. swinging my legs across the bed.  I reach down at unhook my monitor wires that I was allowed to do when going to the bathroom.  "I really need to pee."

"I think you should wait for the nurse." He told me not offering me his hand.

"Either you help me or I am gong on my own." I warn him with sternness.

He holds his hand out and I give him a small smile, I stand on my feet and try to take a step but I am double over in pain, I cry out and it is at the moment I feel warmth between my legs and running down my legs.  I look down, expecting to see water as I thought my water broke, but what I see sends me into a panic.  It is blood, dark red blood and alot of it.

"Jesus Christ." Niall mutters and sitting me back on the bed and running to he door.  "Where the hell is her nurse." He yells down the hall.  "We need help in here."

I sit on the bed trying to get my breathing under control, It was too early, she was going to be too small.   I was bleeding, haemorrhaging.   I could tell, there was blood everywhere, it was running out of me like a river.  Niall rushed back to my side, his eyes were frantic, I seen them looking around the area at all the blood that was coming out of me.  His eyes held mine.