Choices Between Us

Chapter 21

"Niall I can't believe you are being this way.  I am sorry I forgot to call you last night.  Lena was sick and I was tired.  I fell asleep." I say to the blonde man standing in front of me.  "She is still sick but I came over here to talk to you."

"It just goes to show where your heart is.  I was stupid for thinking that you would ever chose me.  It will always be him.   You should just leave." He snaps,  I think he is being a little over dramatic.  "I really can't stand to look at you right now."

"Naill you are being silly."  I tell him softly.  "I forgot to tell you,  I fell asleep."  I move closer to him, place my hand on his hand.  To my surprise he doesn't pull away.

He sighs and looks at me.  "I don't like you spending time with him."

"He is Lena's dad." I tell him softly looking into his crystal blue eyes.

"I hate this." he says running his hands over his face.  "I want us to be together, I want a relationship with you.  I want everything with you Ray.......the whole nine yards.  Marriage, kids and more kids."

I look down away from him,  I can't hold his gaze.  "Niall......"

"Look I know that your scared,  I get that but I want you to know that I am in this for you and only you.  No one else even crosses my mind but you." Niall takes both my hands in his.  "I want there to be an us,  I want to build a relationship with you.  I will never hurt you Ray."

"I will hurt you." I tell him as my eyes well up with tears.  This man in front of me was so much in love with me.  I didn't deserve his love.  I betrayed him in the worst way.

"Don't say that Ray......I know you won't hurt me." He says with his face so close to mine now, I can feel his warm breath on my face.

"I had sex with Harry." I blurt out quickly.

"You what?"

"I had sex......"  I started to say again but he cute me off.

"I heard you the first time." He sneered dropping my hands from his.  He turns his back to me.

"I am sorry." I say as my voice betrays me and cracks.  "It just happened."

"It just happened?!  How the fuck did it just happen.  You told me you loved me.......fuck I told you I loved you.....we made love the night before you left with him.   Fuck Raya.....what the hell are you thinking?  Maybe you never changed.....no alcohol but still a fucking slut."

I flinch at his harsh worlds.  "I do care about you Niall."

He scoffs at me.  "You don't know how to care about anyone but yourself."

"That isn't true." I say looking at him, he is glaring at me,  there are tears fallen down his face which breaks my heart.  I never wanted to hurt him, never set out to hurt him.  "I have always cared for you.  You're one of my best friends."

"Best friends......mmmmh." He chuckles.

I go to touch his arm and he flinches and pulls away from me.

"I am no friend of yours Raya.   I don't ever want to see your face again."

"Niall please...." I beg him to listen to me.  "Don't do this....you know that I care for you." I cry as I can't hold back the tears now.

"Did he know we were together?"

I don't say anything, I avoid his gaze which confirms the answer to the question he was asking.

"That fucking prick." He spits.  "He knew we were together but he fucked you anyway.  It figures....it is just a game to him.  He will mess everything up again.  He will destroy you and break your heart.  This time I will not be there to pick up the pieces."