Choices Between Us

Chapter 11

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Christmas and New Years came and went,  to see them over made me happy.  My mom and dad went on their holiday finally,  my mom had been driving me insane.  Love her to pieces but can only take so much hovering.

Lena was two weeks old,  they were going to try to ween her off the vent today.  I was so nervous and scared at the same time.  She was struggling to keep her birth weight of a whopping 4 pounds,  she was so tiny. 

Harry was still coming everyday to see us,  one of his visits he had his wife with him .  I was so upset that he had brung her here but he said she was his wife and he wanted her to meet his daughter.   Every visit since they have come together.

I stood here off to the side watching Harry hold our daughter while she sat by his side, with her perfect figure, I still looked five months pregnant.  She looked like she just walked off a runway.  Probably one reason why he chose her to be his wife.  I could the darkness I once felt, I would kill for a line of coke or massive amounts of alcohol to take away the ache in my chest.   But once I looked at my daughter the ache would go away.  I would get over Harry Styles.

"Raya she feels kinda warm." Harry says to me after kissing her forehead.  "Like she has a fever."

I walk over to them and place the back of my hand on her forehead.  She is burning up.

"Alice!" I call to her nurse that was sitting across the room.  "She has a fever."

Alice comes to us, takes her temperature and frowns.  I look at the what the thermometer was reading and it was reading 104.  

"Mr.  Styles can I have her?  I want to examine her and do some blood work." Alice asks Harry who obliges and hands over our daughter.  Sarah sits there on her phone not caring in the least that our new daughter was sick.

I feel the tears slip down my face as I watch them poke her and prod her some more.  She can't cry as she has a tube down her throat, her eyes are still covered in patches to protect them from the light.  her little limbs frail as she is upset.  I can't get close to her as there are a few other nurses around her now, helping Alice out.   I wipe the tears away quickly in hopes no one sees me crying, but as I look up Harry's eyes meet mine.  I shake my head and turn away from him.  

I feel his hands on my shoulders,  he turns me and pulls me into a hug.  Even though I can feel her eyes burning holes in my back.  I embrace him, I needed his support.  I know how dangerous it is for her to get sick, for her to have a fever her body was fighting something.

"She will be okay Ray." he whispers in my ear.

"I hope so." I cry trying not to cry.  It is so hard form me to maintain my control.

"Harry, we need to go." Sarah says standing up from where she was sitting.  Harry lets go of me and turns to his wife.  "I told your mom we would be back in an hour.   She said she would watch him while we go out for dinner tonight."

"Sarah Lena is sick, I think I will stay here for awhile.  I will call you a car." Harry tells her, I watch her look at him, he eyes hold so much anger.  "Raya needs me."