Choices Between Us

Chapter 9

"Raya......I know you feel the need to stay with her but you need to get some rest.  Your dad and I want you to stay with us for a few days.  It is Christmas eve.""

"Mom I know.....I just don't want to leave her.  She will be alone." I say as I place my hand in the incubator and touch her little her hand.  It is still covered in gauze to keep her from scratching herself.  "I want to stay with her as long as I can."

"I know dear but you were released from the hospital this am.  You don't have to stay here all the time.  The nurses will take good care of her.   Harry's family will be in as well.  I know his wife was arriving this am.  That is why he isn't here now."

I sigh but don't look away from my precious little girl.  "He is coming back to take me home later." I say softly.  "I just want to go home and rest so I can come back first thing to see the baby.  It is her first Christmas."

My mother sighs knowing that I am not going to change my mind.  "He is married now Raya."

"I know mom."  I turn to look at her.

"I see how you two are when your together.  It is like there is a electric pull between you.  He is always touching you or vice versa.  You need to keep in mind he has a wife and child.  Don't get mixed up with a married man."

I roll my eyes at my mother.  I know Harry is married, I know he has a son.  I know he no longer belongs to me.   It makes my heart hurt but what can I do.   He has been amazing the last 24 hours, never leaving my side but to eat or sleep and no to go pick up his son and wife.

"Stop worrying so much mom."  I tell her as I shut the little door on the incubator and walk towards the exit with her on my heels.  "I am going back to my apartment as soon as Harry arrives which should be soon.  I will stop by in the am before coming back here to see Lena.   I just wish I could take her home already."

"I know honey." My mom says as she places a hand on my shoulder.

We walk out of the Neo Natal unit and back to my room.  All my things are packed up and just waiting on Harry to arrive.   

"I will see you later."

"Bye mom." I say as she gives me a hug.  "See you in the morning."

She smiles at me before she leaves the room.  I sit down on the bed, wincing a little from the pain, my staples were still in would be a few days before they came out.  I was told to not do anything, let someone weight on me.  That is what the doctor said.  It was going to be hard considering that Kyle was away for the Holidays.

"Hi Love."

I look up and Harry is standing in the door.  He looks tired but amazing.

"Hi."

"You ready to leave?" He asks crossing the room and coming to stand in front of me.

"I guess." I say softly looking around the room.  "Did you not want to see the baby before we go."

"Just came from there.  She is sleeping." he said gathering up my stuff.  "She is so beautiful." 

"I know she is." I stood up,  winced a little bit as I was trying to stand.

"Are you okay?"  he asked coming to my side immediately.

"I am fine H." I tell him attempting to stand again, I was stiff and sore.  "I am so tired I can't wait to sleep in my own bed.  I feel really bad about leaving her."

"I know you do love but you need to rest and keep your strength up for when she does get to come home.  Babies can be brutal at times." Harry chuckles as we head out the door.  I was already discharged so I didn't have to check in with the nurse.