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Chapter 12 - sobs

as you can see from the title, crying just loads

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Despite tears streaming down his cheeks and sobs coming out of his mouth Piper still turned on her heels and left. She disappeared out of the door, and Calum looked up in the last moment seeing her hair swish around the corner. Then she was gone, and he ended up burying his head in his hands once more trying his best to stop himself from crying even more. He couldn't.

The sobs came falling out of his mouth and Calum had no idea what to do. The last time he had been crying like that was probably when he was like 10 years old. He didn't even remember the last time it had happened. But here he sat sobbing uncontrollably into his own hands feeling his entire being ache. He still could not believe that she has left. That she was gone, it had left him puzzled behind having no idea what to do.

All he could do was sit there trying to wipe the tears away and think of something else. But he couldn't. She had invaded his mind completely and all thoughts were on her. There was nothing in his head anymore that didn't have anything to do with Piper.

For a while he just sat there on the couch, thinking about the last laugh he had heard from her mouth only a little while earlier. It almost made him smile, but then he realized that he was possibly never going to hear that laugh again and another round of sobs came out of his mouth. He was so incredibly happy that none of the boys could see him right then, because he felt very embarrassed for crying that way. He felt like he was some helpless kid crying to his mother, when in fact he knew that it was true. He truly did want his mother in that moment, wanted her to hold around him and stroke his hair while he was sitting on her lap like she used to do when he was a kid. Even though he knew he was way to old for that now.

Finally he moved from the couch, and went into the door almost right in front of him. That had stairs leading down to it. The door that Piper had just went out through. Slowly he let himself down on one of the steps, staring out at the world outside. The sun moving up the sky, it wasn't very high at that point but it moved a little for every minute Calum sat there staring out in the distance.

He felt absolutely terrible, never in his life before had he felt so bad. Nothing had hurt the way this hurt him. The worst part was that he didn't know what to do about it. A broken body part could be fixed and you could be given something for the pain. A broken heart could not, there was no way to make it feel any better for him. That almost made it worse, thinking he would have to live with a pain like that.

He wasn't crying anymore, but his cheeks were stained with the previous tears and he knew he'd being again at once he opened his mouth. It was so weird for him to cry the way he had been, so very unfamiliar. A thing he hadn't done in so incredibly long, and didn't even know he could do anymore.

"Calum?" He suddenly heard. The known voice of Michael Clifford sounded from behind him. Calum sighed slightly turning his head around to look at his friend. The sunlight hit the wet stains on his cheeks making them even more visible to his friend and along with the red around his eyes Michael understood what his friend has been doing. He just couldn't not believe it.

"..Dude have you- have you been crying?" He stammered, eyes slightly wide as cry was something he had not seen Calum do before. Well of happiness, but never like the way he saw him now. Not with a frown on his face and tears all over his face. Even wet stains on his T-shirt as well. To make it all even more obvious.

"Kinda." Calum muttered with a sigh rubbing his hands over his face to wipe them away. He looked away from Michael again to hide it while the other boy stood there. Puzzled at his answer and having no idea what to do. He had never been good with people crying, he could handle girls, but one of his friends. He really had no idea what to do. The entire situation had him standing there dumbfounded trying to come up with something to say.