One shots (Character X Fem.Reader)

七十八

The first time I saw her. Maybe it was the way she introduced herself to me the first time we met. Or maybe it was the childish giggle, when she looks at him. But I know for a fact this isn't what a friend would feel.

What a friend feels isn't what I feel. I feel a deep sense of longing for her, I want to be the one to hold her hands, kiss her lips, and cheer her up when she's sad and be with her through any moment in life.

But she's taken. She's taken and it breaks my heart knowing it's my best friend. But maybe without him, I wouldn't have met her. I would have lived in the dark without knowing such a beautiful person existed.

I told a friend. A close friend. He told me I probably felt attracted to her looks. But no, this isn't just a simple attraction. I want to be the one she relies-trusts...the most.

I told another friend if I liked someone, but that someone had a boyfriend. What do I do? He joked about how I should just kill them. But I took it seriously. What if I did? He would be gone...and she might come to me.

But she might be...be scared of me instead. I don't want that. I don't want her to be scared of me...right?

Or maybe...maybe if I killed her. If I killed her, I wouldn't have these feelings anymore. But I want these feelings, I want to know more about these deep flutters that go in my stomach when she looks at me, talks with me, and touches me.

"Hey. My girlfriend is coming over. Is that okay?" Ace asks, while I nod. She's welcome over anytime. But I bit my tongue for that not to come out my mouth.

He made a call, and told her she was able to come. "Are you sure your friend won't mind me? I don't want to bother you two if it's a friend time together Ace." She talks, and I sit still, pretending I'm not listening, but every word that she says makes me melt.

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"Hi dear, hey Kallan!" She smiles, waving at me, before returning her focus onto her boyfriend again. "You sure it's okay I'm here at your place?" She asks.

"Of course it's okay darling. Kallan doesn't mind at all, right Kal? " He hums, walking towards her, and wrapping his arms around her waist as I nod, biting my lip.

Ah, my own heart feels like it's being ripped away from me, as I see the scene unfolding in front of me. It feels like I'm drowning in a damn ocean.

"Are you sure he's okay with me here? Does it seem like it? Even though he's told me, I'm still worried" She asks her boyfriend, voice laced with worries.

"Yeah, he said he didn't mind. I'm sure it's nothing, let's sit on my couch, I'll bring some snacks out for okay?" He asks softly.

Stop it. Stop. I want to be the one to whisper towards her, to let her feel these feelings. But I can't. Because once again, I'm not the one who is with her. He is. But I'm not sure I won't do something crazy if I keep watching them go on.

"I gotta make a quick call. Be right back." I turned my head, and walked towards the backyard, whipping out my cigarette and lighter.

It's so fucking stupid. I want to beat myself up. I can't lie to myself and say I don't like her. No, I love her. But she's taken. It's so stupid. I let out a contemptuous laugh to myself, tossing the cigarette into the tray.

I watched as the lit tips slowly became black, dying out. Soon, I headed inside, though not wanting to see them together so often, I can't stay out here forever.

I walked back to the living room, the two already cuddling on the couch and getting cozy. "So. What movie are we watching?" He asks me, still scrolling through his phone.